Day 17
Zoey's P.O.V
Here I am crushed and heart broken. Last night when I got home I didn't move from my car. I did sooner or later of course. When I came in I saw all of these Christmas things and I got angry. I smashed and broken every single thing. I was so mad. I have always loved Christmas but now these last few Christmas's just weren't for me. I did get to see Becka yesterday. Which sucks. I should've went but no I just had to think about myself.
I should go see her. But I can't bring myself to it because it's a hospital and Noah works at a hospital and Nick wife is pregnant and could be having a check up. Ugh! I just want to be trapped in these walls and die! Nothing this Christmas is going right. I was hoping to have the same old boring Christmas but no something just has to happen.
I was totally and fully obsess with love and happiness. That doesn't really come easily. I know that now. It will break you and if you made up walls there was always that one person that will just come to you and break them down. The walls you have built around your heart crashes down and It just might not ever get back up. That's what I did but that didn't really work out now did it?
I just want someone who won't leave me. Yes I have my family and Austin and Becka but I'm talking about love. The one and only. Your one and only. Ever had one? I thought I did two years ago but that changed. Now he's back and I thought all my 11:11 wishes came true but it didn't because he had a wife and she is pregnant. Then I met Noah. I didn't realize at first but it more see Noah and that slut for a girl with him than it did when I saw Nick and April.
I realize now that my one and only. The one who had knocked down the think walls I built. The one who my heart was hiding me from because it thought that I wouldn't handle it was.....Noah. It was Noah. All this time I thought it was Nick but it was Noah. It was always Noah. I guess my heart just knew that I couldn't handle whatever I was feeling for him so it hid it from me.
I was now here. My back against the wall. My knees to my chest. My face soaked with tears. All alone. It doesn't feel like Christmas anymore. Not with out him I guess.
Noah's P.O.V
I can't believe Alyssa did that! I yelled at Alyssa demanding her to get dressed and get out. I kinda felt bad about it. I mostly felt good. I knew that Alyssa was trouble but I also know that she won't give up on me. I like Zoey a lot and I can''t stand the thought of her hating me. I'm gonna say it. I LOVE ZOEY! I always have. That won't change. Alyssa and no other girl will change that.
I miss Zoey. I'm heading to her house right now trying to see if I can talk to her. I park and knock on her door when I get to her condo. No answer. "Zoey? Are you there?" I call out. I knock again. I twist the door knob luckily it's not locked. I open the door. "Zoey?" I see every single Christmas decoration that was in here gone. Smashed, broken. Like she was. I know that she was. Pain stabbed m heart like a sharp knife that with even one little touch will make you bleed. Then worry hits me.
Is she okay? Did she do anything to herself? What happened?! I then hear crying from a room. I run to it. "Zoey!" I shout. I walk in and she her sitting on the ground cry her heart out. I go up to her an wrap my arms around her. "I'm so sorry Zoey." She cries in my chest. God what am I to do know. I get her to calm down. She just sits there as I rock her back and forth. "Are you okay? What happened?" I ask. She was silent. She wouldn't looks at me.
"Zoey Look at me please." She didn't listen she was in a trance. I turn her face towards mine. "Zoey. Can you hear me? Zoey please answer me" I beg. "Noah?" She let's out in a small rough whisper. I smile. "Yes Zoey. Please tell me what happened." I beg.
"No one was there." I was speechless I had no idea what to say. "I'll always be here." She nods and lays back down in my chest. That's what it's like all day and night. She and I fell asleep. Of course I left sooner or later. I still need to talk to her. I just hope I get the chance and say the right thing.
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Yeah I know short chapter. Sorry! But I am tired and yeah long day trust me. Anyway! I hope you are having an amazing holiday! Love ya!
Stay strong,
~~Zenday92~~
