"love makes the strongest people weak, the smartest people dumb, the toughest people break, it can flip your beliefs-everything that you kept on believing in your whole life, love will make you doubt all if it, it can turn the world upside down. thats how powerful love is"
I'm not a fan of such cliche talks and right now, all i want to do is get out of this classroom and go to some place worthy of my time. i dont even know how our professor reached this topic, well maybe one of my hopeless romantic classmates asked about it. this is just so absurd. i mean, seriously people? y'all are in your 18s and youre talking about love? just by saying the word, i already want to puke my guts out
hindi ako bitter sa love. eww. okay fine, i am.
i am nothing against it and im not a fan either. i dont actually know why am i like this. im living with a family which is tied to perfection, my parents are happily married for almost 30 years, i also have an older sister, yet im still acting like this when it comes to love.
i believe in love. its just that no one ever made me feel loved, except for my family because theyre given, romantically. i never ever had a boyfriend. i do have a best friend but just like my family, she is out of this equation. really, i never had anyone close to me except for my family, my best friend and well, Blake Gerlan Erasmo
he is definitely not my friend. all hells will break lose if he actually becomes one. he is a total asshat. he is so annoying that everytime i see him, i want to strangle my hands around his neck and watch him run out of breathe. i loathe him with all my heart. damn i feel so stressed just by the mere thought of his name
paano ko siya naconsider na close sakin?
he follows me everywhere just to ruin my day and i cant remember any moment when he never pissed me off. he is close to me because he is the person i hated the most in this world. ugh i just hate him so much
i got distracted from my thoughts when i heard the bell ring. oh thank goodness! i stormed out of the room as soon as our prof dismissed us. kulang nalang ay magpaparty ako dahil natapos narin ang klase namin ngayong araw. but then, i felt my world crash into a thousand pieces when i saw him outside our room, obviously, he was waiting for me.
sino pa ba? of course its Blake
i can just remember the first time we met and how i instantly felt my blood boil because of remembering it
it was my first day as a college student. nung nagkavacant ako, pumunta ako sa cafeteria and ordered a plate of carbonara and iced tea. i was holding my tray while i was walking, looking for a vacant table then all of a sudden, napahinto ako kasi may nakabunggo sakin and my food spilled on my blouse! i can feel the stares of most students at me. i lifted my head to see the person who ruined my day and i saw a guy wearing rayban shades, red pullovers, black jeans, black roshe shoes, and a black snapback. i also realized that im also wearing a red blouse! then thats it. i dropped the tray and caught everyone's attention.
"excuse me?!" i shouted at the guy. thankfully he realized that i was referring to him and he stopped walking to face me. "you just bumped at me and spilled my food on my blouse." i sternly said with gritted teeth. i noticed that some girls are dreamingly staring at him, well he really is good looking but at this moment, walang akong pakealam kung siya ang pinakagwapong nilalang sa mundo. he ruined my day and he should pay for this.
he raised his hand and pointed himself before lowering his rayban to look at me straight in the eyes "do i look like i give a flying fuck?"
my jaw literally dropped when he said those words. he even gave me a playful smile and continued walking towards the exit of the school cafeteria
i didn't noticed that i was still looking at the door with my open mouth when someone beside me cleared his throat "excuse me po."
"argh! damn you! i swear im gonna find you and fucking kill you!" i said out of frustration and i even kicked the tray. i dont care if they all think that ive gone insane. i was so pissed that day so i decided to go home and drown myself to chips and ice creams.
i was back to reality when Blake snapped his fingers in front of my face
"i know im handsome but stop staring at me like that" he flashed his very famous smirk and my eyes automatically narrowed at him
"what are you doing here? if youre here to piss me again, well i have no time for that mister Erasmo. uuwi na ako" i hurriedly walked past him. nakakainis talaga ang taong yun! he is also downright creepy. i hate him
"hey wait. susunduin kita, thats why i waited for you. sumosobra ka na ha, nakakasakit ka na" i turned to face him and stepped closer
"are you bored again that's why youre pestering me? well, go find another woman because i have no time for your bullshits" i felt his right hand on my waist and he pulled me closer. he leaned on my ear and i can smell his minty breath "why do i think that youre acting jealous? hmm?"
i immediately pushed him away from me "youre so full of yourself. and me? jealous? huh. i. am. not. and i. wont. ever. be." i said, emphasizing every word. i turned my back on him and walked. i can hear his laughter from here and it makes me hate him even more.
i went to the carpark and before i opened my car, i heard someone sobbing. i looked around and saw a girl crying in front of a guy. medyo malayo sila sakin but i am positive that the guy said sorry bago siya tumalikod sa girl, and it just made the girl cry harder.
i groaned. "love? yeah right."
Nang dumating na ako sa bahay, pumasok agad ako sa kwarto ko at nagbihis. I opened my notebook to check if i have something to do and thankfully, dalawa lang ang major subjects namin bukas. I decided to take a nap but before i could even close my eyes, i heard a knock on my door. Im pretty sure its Aleina
Pagkabukas ko ng pinto, nagulat ako kasi hindi yung ate ko yung nasa labas. Its my mom.
"Hey mom, whats up?" I treat my mom like this. And even my dad. Normal na samin ang tratuhin ang isa't isa na parang magbarkada lang, but of course it has its limits. Theyre still almost thrice our age tho
"We're going out for dinner. I asked your dad to spend this night together with the whole fam. We're so busy for the past few weeks at miss na namin kayo ng ate mo" i smiled at her and nodded. I really like this side of my mom, she's so sweet, caring and everything you could ever dream of. Most especially, she and dad never forgets us. Gumagawa talaga sila ng paraan para bumawi kung alam nilang medyo nagkukulang sila, which is wrong because they are like the most perfect persons in this world. I couldn't ask for more. I'm sure Aleina feels the same
"Sure mom. I'll be ready in an hour. I'll just take a nap"
"Hindi pa naman dumadating yung ate mo, i'll just call someone to wake you up an hour before we go-or thirty minutes. Rest okay?"
"Sure mom. I will" i hugged her and i felt her hands on my hair
"I love you sweety" she planted a kiss on my cheeks and i really feel how she loves me as much as she loves my sister
"Love you too mom"
As soon as my mom left, i closed my bedroom door. Hindi ko na nilock para makapasok agad yung gigising sakin mamaya then i took a nap for thirty minutes
