Blake Gerlan Erasmo. He is the ultimate jerk that i have ever known in my entire life. Hindi ko maimagine na may tao pang mas sakim sa kanya. He is heartless. He can break any girl's heart without feeling any guilt after he does it. He can make any boy forget about every best things he had in his life just because of facing Blake. He has everything. He can make anyone bow down before him. But there's something about him that makes him different from any bad guy that i've known from the books i've read and even from the ones whom i've encountered. Blake Gerlan is never aware of what he is doing.
Kung ang ibang lalake ay may katangian na kaparehas ng kay Blake, except for the last one mentioned, malamang ay trip talaga nila iyon sa buhay nila, they do it on purpose.
Make Blake different.
He is heartless with the fact that he has no feelings. Kung may babae man siyang paiyakin, lalaking bugbugin, o taong natapakan, wala siyang nararamdaman. Kung ang ibang tao ay nasisiyahan kung gawin nila ito, Blake never felt anything. Para siyang bato o di kaya'y yelo, na wala nang ibang laman kundi tubig na tumigas dahil sa lamig. Masyado siyang malamig na kaya niyang paginawin ang mga taong nasasalubong niya.
He is so natural with it. He is just being himself. Its like an innate skill that's practically nothing good. He is just being real. Its just in him.
I have witnessed him do cruel things and i have always been amazed with his expression after doing so. His face is just blank. Its like an empty sheet of paper in a nobel-piece-prize-worthy titled book.
And i always wonder why he is treating me way more different
I don't get him.
Why is he still following me when in fact, whenever i'm not around, he would always be with another girl, if not then he probably is with his friends on clubs or parties?
He likes me?
Heck no. That is the last thing on the lists of my reasons on why Blake is still sticking to me.
It has been a year since the day i encountered him and nothing changed. I still feel the same anger, or annoyance, whenever i feel his presence. He still never fails to make me mad whenever he smiles in front of me. He still is the same Blake that ruins my day way back 15 months ago.
"Princess, may problema ba? You've been spacing out" my bubble was popped and i realized that i was thinking of Blake for long.
"Nope. I'm perfectly fine dad. Medyo occupied lang yung utak ko kasi marami kaming school works" lie. I have nothing to do tonight. I was thinking of the man i hate.
"Go finish your food so we could go back home already" i felt guilty. This night is supposed to be spent for the family and forget our works and everything else. But then they have to adjust just because of my stupid lie.
"Wag na, dad. Next week pa naman yung deadline. I still have the whole week." I smiled to convince them that its perfectly okay with me. Ang totoo kasi ay wala naman akong gagawin
"Bahala ka. If that's what you want, then im more than okay with it" i nodded and the topic of the conversation diverted to my sister. She is working for our company. Ewan ko kung anong posisyon. I'm to occupied to even know it
The whole night went so fine. We, girls, bought new clothes and mom bought new shoes. Dad also bought some ties and a new set of perfume. We even walked along the seaside park near the mall. It was a great night, perfect for our family's desire of spending quality time together.
Nang makauwi kami ay naglinis lang ako at nagbihis ng pantulog. I felt tired. I checked my phone when i laid on my bed. Its 5 minutes before 11. I locked my phone and kept it under my pillow.
Hindi pa ako tuluyang nakatulog nang naramdaman ko ang pagbpvibrate nito. I knew what it was
Goodnight, Fallon
Same two-word text that i have been receiving for almost four hundred nights already.
I kept my phone again, closed my eyes and kept on chanting in my mind that i should sleep already. But how can i actually sleep if i can hear the loud thuds coming from the inside part of my chest? I can hear it clearly, loudly, its like its telling me something that i cannot even fathom
I decided to get my phone again and replied to Blake.
Go sleep Blake. You woke me up
Wala pang ilang segundo nang magreply siya ulit.
You set your phone on vibrate mode. Stop lying. You suck at it
Damn i really hate him for being so blunt. Wala bang preno ang kamay niya? Or ang utak?
I forgot. He is Blake anyway
Damn you. Hate you.
Love you too
What the actual fuck?
Lol i'm kidding. I can see your red face from here tho
Naramdaman ko ang pagtayo ng balahibo ko sa batok nang binasa ko ang dalawang magkasunod na text niya. He loves playing with me using these weapons, and my reaction never changed since the beginning.
Can't you just sleep? You make me hate you more.
Aww. But i'm waiting for you outside.
I hurriedly sat on my bed when i read the message. Matagal pa bago na process sa utak ko ang tinext niya.
I immediately ran towards the window to check if he really is outside. I sighed in relief when i saw nothing there. Damn that gave me a mini heart attack
Jerk. I'm sleeping bye.
Sleep well, Fallon.
I felt my heart skip a beat when he sent that message. I was practically losing oxygen from my head and i felt a weird feeling in me. I never expected that. It feels like he is so sincere.
Everytime i send him that text before, he would usually reply
Excited to see me in your dreamland, huh?
I'm sure you want to sleep already because you want to see me again tomorrow
May you have dreams with my wild side ;)
Or anything a Blake Gerlan Erasmo would normally say to me.
But this night, it was so different. I can still feel my heart erratically beating against my chest.
Is this it?
Is this what it feels like?
Hell why am i feeling this way just because of that lame text?
This is so wrong.
