No More Happy Endings

Hell

Robin

I was internally cursing the damn line in the supermarket as the blue fairy continued to blabber on and on about how wonderful her actions were and all of her fundraisers that were taking off. I sighed in annoyance and hastily looked over to see if the other counters were open and leapt into the self checkout, fumbling with the odd screen in front of me, cursing the technology of this new world, and this new formula garbage that my child was being forced to drink. I quickly grabbed the merchandise and rushed out of the bloody store, the sun setting over the clock tower, reminding me that I had left Regina with the baby for such a long period of time.

I rushed into the house and I couldn't help but smile when I looked at what I saw. Regina was passed out on the couch with Christina nuzzled on her shoulder, both of them extremely worn out, her fuzzy pink blanket draped over both of them, the one Regina had given her after she was born, a peace offering for everything that had happened.

"Hey, let's get you two home." I whispered, nudging her gently, she shifted slightly and carefully moved Christina into her arms, rubbing her eyes. "What..." She started, but I just placed Christina inside of the car seat and lifted it into my arms, placing it on my arm. "It's late and I'm taking us home before little green bean wakes up." I said leading her out of the house and over to the car where Regina climbed in and fell back asleep.

Thankfully the Charming's had filled me in on what to expect with a newborn, but surprisingly Christina hadn't woken up. I closed my eyes and felt all of my energy vanish from my body, sleep finally welcoming me until I heard the silent tears coming from my queen next to me.

"Regina? What is it darling?" I asked rolling her over so she was facing me, her cheeks splotchy with tears. "Robin I have to tell you something." She cried, I gently took her hands and nodded at her, urging her to continue.

"I can't give you what you want in life, I can't have babies." She sobbed, all of the pain that Zelena had caused her now showing on her face as she sobbed, I had never hated Zelena more than this moment right now as the love of my life shared with me her broken heart. I immediately took her into my arms and held her, allowing her to cry into my shirt, wipe her nose, sleep. When she had calmed down I carefully took her face into my hands and kissed her lips, then her eyes, cheeks, tasting her tears that she had spilled, then her nose. "Regina Maria Mills listen to me, you have given me everything I could ever want in life, you are perfect just the way you are, and I love you with all of my heart. The fact that you can't have children does not make you any less of a woman, or person, or mother." I said gently, she squeezed her eyes shut and curled into a ball, trying to block out the memories of her troubled past.

"But I want it Robin, I would never say it to her but I was jealous of Zelena, I want to feel my child grow inside of me, I want to know that for nine months my child relied solely on me, that I was its source of life. I look at Henry and Roland and they have a special relationship with their other mothers because there is an unspoken bond there. Henry loves me and I him, but we had our rough spots where he wouldn't stay with me because he found his real mom." She whimpered, that part of their relationship obviously causing her a great deal of pain.

"Then we will try Regina, we will try and reverse whatever happened to you, but I know those boys love you more than life itself, because of how much you love them. Don't worry, now let's get some sleep, I hear we have a hellish trip we have to take tomorrow.

Regina

I woke up feeling quite humiliated over what happened last night, after my little meltdown. I quickly got up and showered, blow drying my hair with all of the doors shut so the baby would sleep. I quickly threw on my dark makeup and ran out of the bathroom to find Robin standing in the bedroom giving me a look.