All the pain I've been through,
Yet nothing can compare
To just how I felt
When I saw you standing there.
His lips on yours,
Instead of on mine
Bodies pressed together,
Limbs entwined.
A jolt of pain,
Realisation floods me.
I was never what you wanted,
Now clearly I can see
I thought you were my friend
That in you I could find trust
In a relationship this strong,
Honesty is a must.
Was our friendship a lie?
The entire thing,
Did you destroy all of this?
For just one quick fling?
Has it always been this way?
You controlling me,
To get what you wanted
By using me as the key?
I thought that he loved me,
Obviously I was wrong.
Have I been used again?
Did I never belong?
The pain builds up,
I'm seeking a release.
Twisting, writhing inside of me,
Wishing the pain would cease.
There is only one way,
Though I hate to give in,
Thought I could fight,
The addiction within.
I know that I promised,
I know that it’s mad.
But I swear to you,
Life has got this bad.
It’s the only way out,
The only escape,
To end up so broken,
Can only be fate.
I was destined to this,
To a life of pain,
Only one way of survival,
Bound up by chains.
Trapped in this world
Held tight by my life
Wishing for an escape
The only one with a knife
Defacing my skin,
Releasing the pain,
I know that it’s wrong,
But to me it’s a game.
A little cut here,
A little cut there.
No-one will notice,
No-one will care.
I watch the blood,
Down my arm it seeps.
Deep inside of me,
I feel freedom leap.
I know I should feel sorry,
I know I should feel bad.
But right now I don’t feel that.
I can only feel glad.
The scars reflect,
Exactly how I feel.
Although I'm still living,
Life seems so unreal.
I wash the tears off my face,
And the blood off my wrist.
Scratches now where,
The knife just kissed.
How does no-one notice?
How does no-one guess.
I want you to realise,
But I'm too scared to confess
I hide the scars on my body,
Because they bring me shame
But to have them on my flesh,
Tells what words cannot explain.
*A lovely poem done by
AnotherTeenCliche
