Mate's Don't Break Each Other's Hearts (slow updates due to school)

Chapter 12: Push and Pull

Chapter 12: Push and Pull

Kolton's pov.

"Cat, it's about to be seven thirty, I think we should go back now." I say as I look over at the brunette who was now facing away from me, looking at a tree.

"Thanks."

It's so soft and quiet I could barely hear it, for a second I thought I had made it up until she turned and gave me a soft smile. "For what?" I ask softly as I get up as well. She looks shy as she answers my questions, a look I enjoy too much. "For, for caring." She says and I send her a soft smile. I feel like if I answer it wouldn't come out well, I need to work on being a caring mate and not a douche one.

She starts to walk back towards the pack house and I follow her. We don't speak the way back because I feel like in this moment, we didn't need words, she knew I would be there for her and I knew that we had moved somewhere. Our relationship was complicated, I know that, but today I think I made it a bit stronger, better. I feel like we're finally going somewhere.

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The first thing I see once I enter the pack house was a sulking Alex sitting on a couch. Cat ignores the pleading look he sends her way and she walks up the stairs and towards her room without a word. I stand by the end of the stairs, watching Cat go up silently, and look over to Alex. I raise a brow at him, suggesting I was asking what happened, and he sighs.

"Cat and I argued about my mate. I was being a bit biased, and she got upset and left. I want to apologize but I don't know how, nor do I know if she'll forgive me." Alex looks like a punched puppy, but I'm kind of happy because I don't like how close he is to my mate. "Well, try to see it from her perspective, I guess. And be patient. Don't expect immediate forgiveness and be upset when you don't get it."

Alex nods and gets up from the couch, he walks down the hall. He stops briefly and turns to me, "I think you should take that advice as well."

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I pace my room, I've been up all thinking about what Alex had said to me. He was right, I should take my own advice, but I'm so confused about how Cat feels. How can I look at it from her perspective when I don't even know what it is?

I look over at the door, I could go and ask her, she's only a hallway away. But I don't want to make her uncomfortable, I mean, she is like a balancing board with me. If I push too far on one side in the slightest she goes too far and I go twenty steps backwards with whatever progress I had made. It's like I'm playing a game with the maker, it seems like I have no chance of winning but I still have too try.

Yet, the thing that really gets me is how she can accept and forgive Marcy! Marcy of all people! Marcy was the one that manipulated everyone in the pack to hate and torment her! Not me! Sure, I'm not completely innocent, I just stood by and let everything happen, but at least I didn't get people to do things to her! I only laughed at her, just like everyone else. I didn't do anything significantly horrible to her, for some reason, I could never bring myself too. Maybe it was the mate bond, way before I even completely felt the mate bond I was still able to feel the bond and that made me never do anything to her because I could never bring myself to hurt my mate. Well, at least I never could until the night I found out she was mine...

But Marcy! How? I have been nothing but kind to her since she returned but Marcy doesn't even speak to her until one day, randomly might I add, and asks for forgiveness and BOOM! Forgiven! And I'm here begging, continuously, and still she has me on a tight lease a mile away from her! It's unfair! And I'm her mate of all people! A mate should be loved no matter what! I love her! Why can't she realize that she loves me?! It's so frustrating how we are trapped in a circle and there's no way to get out of it! It's like she doesn't want to get out of the circle, she never wants a mate and wants to just get over this mission and leave, but that really hurts.

I somehow find myself knocking at her door. I hear her soft footsteps come closer and my heart rate starts to pick up, what was I even going to say to her? Hi, I've been up all night thinking about how you hate/kinda like me and want to know how you feel about me? And if I could sleep with you in my arms? No, no, thats stupid...

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a/n: i dont know what i'm doing here. i stubbled upon this, which was written ages ago. 'i'll update soon' oh wow im full of shit haha sorry this is a year late. happy february, i have more prewritten chapters i'll put up if theyre not too horrible