Mate's Don't Break Each Other's Hearts (slow updates due to school)

Chapter 13: Scared

Chapter 13: Scared

Kolton's pov.

I knocked. I don't how I got to it, but I did. Now, I'm freaking out because I still don't know what to say...

"Kolton?" Cat opens the door and stares at me with a confused expression.

"Uh, hi, Cat... I was, uh, trying to sleep but my wolf has been a bit restless and, uh, I was wondering if, maybe, we could sleep together?" I stammered out but once I saw the look on Cat's face I knew I had to futher explain, "No! No! Not have, like, sex, just lay together! My wolf has been restless and he's only calm around you... We won't have to do anything, just, uh, just let me hold you?" I'm red by the end and she laughs. "You're lucky my wolf has been the same."

This felt so right, so natural, so perfect with her in my arms. This is how it's suppose to be, me and her, nothing else. I could just spend days staring at her, she's so beautiful, so vibrant, she's so amazing. I could never get tired of her, she's gotten me good, and she's barely been here! I guess that's what happens when you have a strong mate pull. 

"Kolton." She says softly. "Yes, Cat?" I say and she turns her head up to face me, "It's kinda creepy when your just staring at me like that, I think you might start drooling soon." And I burst out laughing. Damn she's hilarious! "I'm sorry, I'm just in awe of something so beautiful." I say and she turns away from me, well tries since I'm still holding her tight. "Kolton, what are you doing?" She asks and I look at the side of her head confused. She had asked me this question when she first arrived here, funny how that seems so long ago, so much has happened since then.

"Mate's don't break each other's hearts, Cat...... I broke yours, and I'm just trying to fix it." I say sincerely and she looks up at me with surprise in her eyes but something else. She then flips over so she pressed against me and holds my face in her hands. She moves up and then she's nose to nose with me, I'm frozen in my place and she takes a deep breath then places her lips on mine. Holy shit she's kissing me!

I grab her waist and move her closer and I kiss her back hard. I feel millions of sparks going through my body and when she runs her hands through me hair, brushing it and pulling it. She moans softly and my wolf is howling with joy, she's accepting us! Yes! Then, just as I try to deepen the kiss, she freezes. She pulls away from me and looks at me with something that looked like fear and nervousness. She then quickly jumps off me and runs out the door leaving me there on the bed wondering what just happened. 

I stay there completely still for a total of about five seconds before I jump off the bed and run for my mate. I burst out the door, rush down stairs, and look around to see where she went. After not seeing anything I tilt my head back and sniff the air to find her scent and follow it.  Her scent leeds to the woods and I sprint into them and follow that sweet smell. After about 15 minutes of dogding trees and jumping over rocks I come to a river and groan, her scent stops here. Damn she's smart for getting rid of her scent like that! I think and my wolf angrily agrees, he was very mad and confused on why our mate ran from us when we did nothing wrong

I shake my head and sit down on the grass. I pull at the grass leaves as I ponder over what had happened, I didn't do anything, why would she run? I run a hand through my hair and look up at the trees above me. "Why? Why Cat? What did I do? Please, please come back. I-I, I don't know what just happened but I just want you to come back. Please baby, if you can hear me, just let us talk it through....... I just don't want you to leave me...." I say my voice cracking a few times. I look back down at the grass and sigh, I just hope she's not leaving me for good.

Cat's pov.

"Why? Why Cat? What did I do? Please, please come back. I-I, I don't know what just happened but I just want you to come back. Please baby, if you can hear me, just let us talk it through....... I just don't want you to leave me...." I hear the sad voice of Kolton say. I'm just confused, my hormones took over, I didn't mean to kiss him, no, my wolf did it! If it were me I would have kicked his balls and ran away from his arms! Yeah, I don't want to kiss him, it's just my wolf. Ha, you're funny. She says and I groan and run my hands through my hair.

No, no, no! I don't want Kolton, I don't like Kolton! I can't like Kolton! He is a dickwad who broke my heart and is nothing more! Those kisses were all your doing! I know it! I say and I hear her laughing, Is that really what you believe? He's our mate, we can't resist him, he's our second half. We can't function without him, the only reason why you did well in Austrailia was because you had so many distractions there! But don't forget those few nights you would spend, alone, outside on the beach, watching the waves, thinking of what he was doing! She says and I frown as I see flashbacks in my mind of those nights, how I would look up at the stars and wish that somewhere, somehow, he was looking at them too, and that we were there, together, in our own little way.

That was only a few times when I was feeling weak! I am strong and independant! I don't need him! I retort and I stand up and start pacing around in a circle. If you're so strong and independant than why did you break when Alex found his mate? She says and I stop pacing. Exactly, you need Kolton as much as he needs you. It is useless to try and push him away like you have, don't try and convince me that you didn't enjoy how it was him who found you? I feel my heart start to race as it starts to make sense. But it's not suppose to, Kolton and I aren't suppose to make sense! We are like black and white!

Nothing in life is suppose to make sense, Caterina. If it did, than it would be too easy. I sigh, for once my wolf is making sense and sounding smart. I lean against a nearby tree, Look, I know that you're suppose to guide me and crap, but all this has just made me even more confused. I don't even know what I want anymore... I feel a few tears start to stream down my face and I wipe them away angrily, seriously Cat? Are you that pathetic that you are crying like a little girl with boy problems? That is a lie and you and I both know it. I think you know what you want but don't want to admit it. She responds and I nod my head and wipe away my tears.

But how can love Kolton if I'm so scared of him?

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Alright, sorry bout how short this chappie is, but like fifth harmony is on tv right now as I'm writing this so uh yeah. Adios, thanks for reading! :)

omg. that authors note was written ages ago. wow. i can feel the lame. anyway, this could be worse, so i'll put it up. happy reflection finally came out day. buy it on itunes.