Conflicted // The Shield

Two

{just as a quick note, the video above is Honey's entrance music. It starts with the instrumental, and skips the first bit of lyrics and starts with 'you hid there last time you know we're gonna find you' so just imagine that :) enjoy the chapter!}

I had stopped sobbing, now I was just curious. I was laying across Dean's shoulder but I had no idea where they were taking me. I heard a door open and we went inside.

"Ow! Fuck!"

With Dean being the giant that he is, he just made it through the door, but because he had another human it made him taller. So the back of my head smacked against the top of the door frame. It almost set me off crying again. Dean chuckled so I slapped him across the back of his skull.

"Asshole" I muttered.

Dean threw me onto the sofa where I landed with a soft thud.
"What's going on?" I asked. All three of them had pulled up a steel chair and were sitting in a semi-circle in front of me.
"You" Seth pointed at me.
"Are going to tell us why you were upset" Roman finished.
"I wasn't upset" I snapped and crossed my arms over my chest.
"Sure didn't look like it" Dean retorted.
"Shut your face, Ambrose" He smirked at me, shooting me a 'make me' look.
"Tell us?" Seth said softly and gave me a kind smile. I sighed. I really, really didn't want to, but I knew that if I didn't they would keep me here until i told them.

"Before I start" I gave them a look. "Why should I tell you?"
Dean sighed and ran a hand through his messy hair. Damn. Not now Shannon!
"Because we aren't as bad as people think" Seth replied.
"Speak for yourself" Dean laughed. I couldn't help but laugh with him.
"Okay, I guess I can tell you" I felt... comfortable around them, which sounds strange but i just couldn't explain it. They felt like family.
"After I was done talking with Dean, I headed back to catering but none of the girls were there. So I went back to the Diva's locker room and... and I heard Saraya talking to Naomi" I stopped there. I didn't want to carry on because I knew I would burst into tears right here in The Shield's locker room.
"And...?" Roman pushed me on.
"I-I heard them talking about...me. Saraya said that sometimes she wishes I wasn't here because if I wasn't she would have so much more in life" I saw all three of their faces fall, then I felt tears overflowing my eyes and dripping down my cheeks.
"Sh-she wishes I was dead!" I sobbed into my hands and it killed me that the most dominant men in WWE saw me in my weakest moment but right now I couldn't care less.

I wiped my wet cheeks and carried on ranting.
"My entire fucking life I've lived in her shadow. She's the first ever NXT women's champion, a 2x Diva's champion and what am I? I'm just a girl that happens to look like her. The only reason I was moved up from NXT was because I was her twin. The whole 'package deal' thing. It's bullshit!"

I stood up and started pacing as Dean, Seth and Roman watched me quietly.
"No-one's ever really cared about me. Everyone just uses me to get at her. Do you guys have any idea what it's like when people pretend to be proud of you? I've never had a championship. I started wrestling at 13 and of course Saraya was the one who got all these pushes for titles whilst I stood on the sidelines, cheering her on"

It felt good to get all of this off my chest, I didn't realise how long and how much I had bottled up inside. I wonder how long Saraya had her feelings in for.
"You done?" Someone decided to speak up and it was Dean. I nodded, sighing and ran a hand through my tangled hair. I flopped down on the sofa and groaned softly.
"You're cute when you get angry"
"Thanks Dean, but I'm too pissed off for flattery right now" Seth and Roman chuckled at my words. I sat up and looked at them.
"Saraya doesn't know that I heard her, what am I supposed to do?" I muttered, searching their faces for answers.
"Play mind games with her" Dean shrugs. "Prove you're the bigger and better woman. Act like you're fine with her and, I don't know, snap or something"
"If I snap, I would lose half of me and possibly all of my friends"
"Hey, it was just a suggestion" Was Dean implying that I should turn on my twin sister?
"So, Dean. Are you saying I should turn on her?"
"Well, yeah I guess"
"What would I do after that?"
"Oh, I'm sure we have a pretty good idea" Roman piped up and grinned at me.