What Love Really Was

Sickening Dreams

-In The Morning-

Since I didn't get to surprise Dearra last night because of that nigga jack Ima do it today. I woke up around 11:30, while Dede and her mother was sleep together in the guest room. I started cooking breakfast (Eggs, Pancakes, Grits, Sausage)😂😂. At around 12:15 both of them woke up and came straight to the kitchen after they brushed there teeth. I handed Dede and her mother there plates and then I sat down to eat also.

Dede Mom- Zahj I just wanted to thank you for yesterday (Puts Her Head Down) It was pretty brave of you to stick up for us like that, especially me because of all the trouble I caused you. 

Me- I'll do anything for Dede and her family.

Dede was eating her food quietly when she started running to the bathroom. I ran after her to see her throwing up in the toilet. I was holding her hair back. She was crying, her mother came and comforted her and I ran the water in the tub so Dede could sit in it. After Dede got out the tub and got dressed her mother took her to the hospital. Dammit plan is ruined. So I just sat on my couch and started watching Friday. Until Lala texted me.

-Text Messages-

Lala/Bro✊❤- Yo! Where You At? 

MyBrother💘💯💪- I'm Ina Crib...Wassup?

Lala/Bro✊❤- Ima Come Over...Ight?

MyBrother💘💯💪- Ight Bets Ima Keep The Door Unlocked.

Lala/Bro✊❤- Ight Big Bruh 💯💋🎀

-Text Messages Over-

I wonder what Lala gotta talk to me about. The shit sound real urgent. Anyways after 16 minutes waiting with curiosity Lala walked throught my door. 

Lala- Yo Zahj I think I know who shot you....

Me- WHO?!

Lala- That nigga Jack...Dearra step-father.

Me- But how you know?

Lala- He was speaking to head boss yesterday about how you whooped his ass, and head boss said "Well, next time you should think about who you shooting at." and Jack was like "I only did that cus my girl told me to." Bro I think he shot you because Dearra moms wanted you dead.

   Me- DAMN YO!! I want me and Dearra to be fucking happy, but her mother always got something to do with my happiness being turned into shit. What you think I should do?

Lala- Tell Dearra?

Me- Nahhh that would break her.

Lala- Talk to ha moms alone....

Me- Yeah, Yeah Ima do that.

Lala- Ight well lemme go get this girl Na-Na from the nail salon Ight, I'll catch you lata.

Me- Ight good looks bro

Lala- Anytime 

-Lala Leaves-

I can't believe Dede mom would try to kill me....over what? What made her so mad to make her do something like that? Ima find out when they get home tho...I know that fo-sho. I waited all day for Dede & Ha mom, but Dede called around 6:30 saying that she was gonna be staying ina hospital for the day I hope my baby okay. At around 7:12 Araya texted me.

-Text Messages-

Araya👯🎀- Zahj?

Baby Boy 😍💍🔐- Yeah👀?

Araya👯🎀- I miss you 😔

Baby Boy 😍💍🔐- I miss you too 💯💙

Araya👯🎀- Can I come over👀?

Baby Boy 😍💍🔐- I don't think that's a good idea 💯✊

Araya👯🎀- Please, I just wanna hang nothing else😔😭 I just need somebody right now😔✊

Baby Boy 😍💍🔐- How Bout I come over your house 👀💯?

Araya👯🎀- That always works too 😏🎀💙💋

Baby Boy 😍💍🔐- Bets I'm on my way 😂💯

Araya👯🎀- Okayyy 😘😘 

-Text Message Over-

I know I'm wrong for going to Araya house after trying to get Dede back, but Raya just needs someone to be with right now. If I can't be in a relationship with her Ima be her best friend because she deserves at least that from me. 

-At Araya House-

I walked in Araya house and instantly someone was thrown on top of me. It wasn't Araya It was some ugly ass nigga. So I flipped him off me and started punching him in his face, he was trying to get up but I stopped that nigga out then I gave him one last punch that knocked him out cold. I walked around the house looking to find Araya. I walked into the bathroom to see her laying in the tub with a purple eye and a bloody nose. She could barley talk or look at me, I picked Raya up and I put her in my car I drove her to my house.

-In Zahj's House-

I ran the bath with warm water and I put a little bit of soap in it. Then I undressed Araya and sat her in the tub. I ran downstairs to get a pack of peas out the refrigerator, I put the pack of frozen peas on Raya eye and I took some alcohol and rubbed her nose with the tissue. Araya was just sitting there hugging her legs with her face on her knee's. She looked at me and let out a deep breathe.

Araya- I'm sorry Zahj

Me- Nah don't be, I should be saying sorry to you

Araya- I just wanted to be loved Zahj, You wouldn't understand...that boy use to beat me everyday for idk what reason. And when you showed enough care for me I just felt like you needed me and I needed you, I guess I was wrong because you got your forever, but I thought I found mines. I just wanted the love that I wasn't getting and I'm sorry for ruining your relationship.

Zahj- Like I said the first time you don't have to apologize to me, I understand you I really honestly do...

Araya- (Cries)

I walked out the bathroom, went inside my room and grabbed a T-shirt out my Dresser and a pair of boxers. Then I walked to the bathroom and wiped Raya down with some soap and rinsed her off with water. Then I took a towel and wrapped it around her, I picked her up and set her down in the guest room. She put my shirt on with my boxers then she laid down and fell asleep so I walked to my room and fell asleep.

-3:00 A.M.-

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Wtf! I woke up and ran in the room Araya was in to see her shivering and moving in her sleep. I shook her yelling "Wake Up!" and she woke up. She was crying in fear and she jumped in my arms asking for my protection. I approved it. "I'm Here" I said. She Cried even more, we laid down together and fell asleep waiting for the morning to wake us up again.

-12:45 P.M.-