What Love Really Was

Never Gonna Stop

Dearra POV

You never really realize what your doing until it's done. Giving Zahj that speach I will say hurted me more then it hurts him right now. Truth be told this is his baby & I made sure of that. I just said it all out of an unspoken mind. I just let anything out to feel better for myself. I was in the living room with Lala, I had my head on her lap crying. She was stroking my hair back, kinda like my mother would do. Three minutes later my sobs & relaxation with Lala got interrupted. Zahj walked through the door drunk as hell. He could barely walk on his 2 feet so I don't know how he mad it to the door. The look on his face made me cry. He looked...H-He looked lost. As if he needed something, but he didn't know what that "thing" was. Lala quickly bring him to the couch, he sat next to me leaning towards my shoulder.

Zahj- He-Heyyyyy Deeeeee....what's your name again??

I could smell the beer & shots of Hennessey that he's been taking. It made my stomach turn. I quickly moved to the other seat & flicked through the tv channels. Zahj laughed & looked at Lala. Lala chuckled, then looked at me & turned her face. Zahj sat next to me once again. This time he lifted me up & sat me on his lap. Lala phone rang & I could tell it was Nana calling cus she looked at the Caller Id On Her IPhone & she rolled her eyes while walking out the living room & going upstairs.

Zahj- Can I get ya numba girl? (He smiled)

Me- *Laughs* why are you doing this?

Zahj- What am I doing exactly??

Dearra- Why are you drinking?? *tears form*

Zahj- Idk *looking down while tracing his finger up and down my inner thigh*

Dearra- I don't want you fucking yourself over because I'm gone and away from you

Zahj- But your not gone and away from me, your right here

Dearra- *Tears drop* Your right, I'm right here Zahj

Zahj- Why are you crying?

Dearra- Because as much as I assume I want to let you go I Just Can't.

Zahj- I'm not ever giving up on you 

Dearra- Neither am I

Zahj got up from the couch and walked out the door. I followed him knowing he's drunk it worried me to let him just walk home alone. When we got to the house door he pulled me in. We kissed as if we haven't seen each other in forever. It was so passionate. He picked me up and we let our tongues enter each other's mouths. He then took me upstairs and pushed me on the bed. He kissed me from my lips to my thighs. He was teasing me by kissing every place close to my 😻💦 I was desperately craving for him to just kiss that place. After 30 seconds of him teasing me he the started to eat me out and I moaned, screamed, & scratched his back. Then I let it out, I came while pulling on the covers so tight. He stood up and I just wanted to get wild so I pushed him on the bed and I Rode him so fast he gasped for air. He was breathing so heavy, It was so sexy. After he flipped me over giving me back shots. I moaned "Faster, Faster Daddy". He pulled my hair which made me moan even louder because I LOVED when he did that. Then he started moving slow. We stopped & laid down. I was just rethinking about what just went on, I'm Never Gonna Stop With Zahj 🙌💘💍🔐.