Meredith Grey's book of Grey's Anatomy.

The first day

"Mom, how am I suppose to get to school? It's my first day of high school!" I yelled at my mom as she put her phone in her purse and got ready for work.

"I don't care Meredith. Figure it out for yourself. I have to get to work, goodbye." My mom was head of general surgery at Seattle Grace Hospital. She never had time for me, According to my best friend, Cristina, they call us the twisted sisters meaning; were all messed up inside and no one should ever wanted us cause we're way to complicated. Anyway, I had no way to get to school if my mom couldn't take me. Cristina practically lived at the school so there's no chance she's not already there and Alex, well, he's got his own problems.

Once my mom left I decided to call Izzie. I could always count on her to be able to help me out with something. About 15 minutes later she pulled into my driveway and honked the horn. I ran outside right away. My eyes started to water up before I got into the car, but I wiped them. Last thing I need is poor pathetic Iz asking me what's wrong.

We got to school right when the bell rang and I ran straight to class. I looked down at my schedule to find Anatomy class as my first period. Perfect. I love anatomy, this should be awesome. I walked into class and sat next to Cristina.

"Hey! We're in the same class, that's great!" She wouldn't look up from her book. I lifted up the paper to see the cover and saw she was reading Gray's Anatomy. Ironic. My name's Grey. I looked around to see who was in my class. When I looked next to me I saw a guy who totally looked like he'd been her before. Then I realized this class wasn't just for freshman. There was sophomore-junior scattered all over the place. I tapped the boy's shoulder,

"Can I borrow a pencil?" Stupid. I know but I needed to talk to him. All of the sudden a hot, gorgeous, older looking girl was standing in between us.

"Hey-" she turned her back to me and blocked my view to the guy. What, was that his girlfriend? He must be way out of my league. I was dozing off and everything they were saying was muffled. I looked up and saw the girl looking at me.

"Um, can I sit there? I want to sit next to Derek." I smiled and acted like nothing was wrong. I looked over to see the boy I mean, Derek, rolling his eyes at her and turning back towards the front of the room. I decided to be a decent person and sit on the other side of Cristina, who still hasn't looked up from her book.

"Woah." She finally said. "Weren't you just on the other side of me?"

"Yeah I was. You see the red head sitting next to you? Yeah she stole my seat. Next to a really hot guy. I think they're dating though." I replied back as we looked at them talking. The girl looked like she was trying to get his attention and he looked like he didn't want to hear whatever she was trying to say.

"Oh Addison and Derek? Yeah they've been together I guess sense they were in their freshman year. They're juniors now." She looked at me and saw my eyes get watery. "Hey, are you okay?" I flinched and then looked at her confused.

"Why wouldn't I be okay? Yeah I'm totally fine, I'm so fine I can be the queen of fine!" I said quickly. Cristina looked at me and waited for me to break. "I had a rough morning with my mom again. It's like she doesn't even care." All of the sudden I heard heavy footsteps walking into the classroom. The class started and my mind went away from everything except for anatomy.

At lunch time, our group all sat at the same table. Izzie was eating almost as much as a bear before hibernation and same with Alex who was eating everything he could find, Cristina was having a salad, George was eating a sandwhich and I was drinking water because I was too upset to eat, as usual. A girl named April Kepner and her boyfriend Jackson Avery came over all perky and happy.

"Hey Meredith, I saw you eyeballing Shepherd earlier in Anatomy class... Wait are you going to eat anything?" She looked down at my hands which was only holding a water bottle. Everyone stopped and looked at me.

"No, I'm fine, I'm fine okay, I have to go." I got up and walked out of the cafeteria to the bathroom. I double checked to make sure no one was here and then burst into tears when I heard a knock on the door.

"It's a public restroom!" I yelled shakily, I didn't want to make it sound like I was crying but it ended up that way. I wiped my eyes and made sure it didn't look like I had been crying. Nobody came in so I walked outside to go back and find Cristina when I ran into, none the less, Derek Shepherd. He looked at me with sad eyes like he knew something was wrong.

"What," my eyes began to water again and I looked away, then looked back at him. I nudged him to move a little to the right so I could get to my class. Around 5 seconds later, I turned around to see whether he was still there and caught him looking at me like he felt bad for me or something.

At the end of the school day I ended up walking to the hospital and thinking, maybe tomorrow will be better? I mean it wasn't that bad today. Just wasn't good.