Meredith Grey's book of Grey's Anatomy.

Space Needle

I had gone home with my mom from the hospital. She sat her stuff down and laid on the couch with her pager. I walked over to ask if she could take me to school tomorrow but before I could say anything she blurts out,

"You know I never wanted a child and now I have you and then Thatcher goes and leaves us and now it's just you and me and your hear looking nervous like who are you? Grey's don't get nervous! Just ask me what you want to ask me and be a strong person. Be affirmative. Be extraordinary. Unlike yourself. Become someone else because the you that you are sucks." I stood there about to cry but instead I told her I didn't want to be driven to school anymore. Then ran up to my room and slammed the door.

It was a few days after the first day of school. Izzie had been taking me to school because my mom well, I told her not to so, and high school was still high school. I actually had gotten to school early where I found Cristina trying to track me down. We went out to the tunnels under the school where we hang out, she sat me down and looked at me.

"Mer, I want to know what's going on? There's something up and I need to know what because you're starting to drift away." I looked at her and realized she was seriously concerned about me.

"Cristina, there's nothing-"

"I know that's a lie. Please tell me what's wrong."

"It's just the usual. My mom can't be bothered with me and just, it's starting to get to me and then there's Derek whos so dreamy but I can't have him because he's already taken and-" Cristina cut me off.

"Okay for one thing, Derek and Addie, broke up! Something about Derek liking this one girl and ignoring addie and all this stuff and the other thing is, how do you not find out about these things until I tell you?" She grabbed me shoulders and smiled. I was still hung up on the fact that Derek and Addison broke up. What girl is Derek so in love with? "You're right though, you should let your mother get in the way of your health. You need to eat, let's go to the cafeteria."

Half way through us eating breakfast like foods, I saw Derek start walking towards our table.

"Hi, I'm Derek. Derek Shepherd." He put his hand out for my to shake so of course I took it. Oh wow. Why was he here? I looked over at Cristina and she shrugged. "Would you like to walk to class with me? We have anatomy together next." I smiled and looked over to Cristina to make sure it was okay for me to leave her alone. She nodded and I got up to walk with Derek. We talked about being surgeons and how our days were going. Then I realized that it was taking longer than I thought to get to our class.

"Where are we going?" I asked as I realized he didn't seem the least bit lost.

"We're going to the very top of the building. I want to show the space needle which you can see from here." When we got to the top I looked over at me.

"I saw that you've been unhappy for the past few days and wanted to cheer you up. I know you don't know me, but I just thought it would be nice to come up here with someone new." I smiled at him, but my insides were still breaking down. Nobody wanted me. This person doesn't even know me. Once Derek gets to know me, he'll run for the hills. I looked down and the out the window. All of the sudden water started in my eyes again. What is up with that and why does it keep happening? All of the sudden the bell rang and we realized we had to actually go to class, so we did. I could tell Derek could tell that the view had only helped a little and so he hugged me. I hadn't felt a hug in so long. Then we kissed. My lips met his and they locked. I had kissed so many guys before this but this kiss had felt like no other.

"We have to get to class" I said as I pulled away from him. I had been going through so much and if he knew, I can't get close to anyone. I ran down the steps to anatomy class and sat down in a seat next to Addison.

"What's wrong with you?" Addison snarled at me. I raised my hand to go to the bathroom and on my way out Derek had just gotten down the stairs. I started to walk the other way but he stopped me.

"Hey! Hey, what's wrong?" I turned around with tears streaming down my face. I didn't know what to tell him.

"I can't have you involved in my complicated life. You're great, but if you knew how difficult I am, you won't want to be around me. I'm like bad luck." I started to turned away but he grabbed my arm.

"I understand. You're dark and twisty according to everyone in the school. You're the school's gossip, but I don't believe that you can't be loved because I'm living proof you can." He pulled me in and hugged me. I hugged him back but I wasn't much of a hugger so it was a little awkward. I began to laugh and then walked back into the classroom with Derek. Everyone stared at us but I didn't care. I had someone next to me that I didn't know whether I could trust or not. I'm not going fully into it just incase but right now. It feels right.