Love is a feeling that brings out the worst and best on someone. It's something that is very hard to explain, specifically, the exact words to describe it. Some may say that love is blind. That it brings wonder and many more sweet words that could coat it.
I wonder, bakit ako, noong nagmahal, none of the words fit? Its not wonderful, its not sweet, its cruel. Its cruel to the point that I am ready to go blind and deaf just to be loved back. Cruel to the point that my knees bled from begging.
"Please, take me back." I kneeled. Begging for him not to leave. Kasi kapag nawala siya, wala na ako. I just can't let him go. Hindi pwede na bibitawan niya na lang ako bigla and that it doesn't matter wether it could crush me or not!
I hugged his knees and hold it tightly. Ayoko. Ayoko..
"Gagawin ko lahat, 'wag mo lang akong iwan. Please." I could barely see from my tears. I could barely breath from my plead. His stare's made me feel weak and pathetic. But I don't care! Wala na akong pakialam.
I gave up my pride, ego, life and my heart... Wala akong tinira, I just want him to stay.
Does he not love me anymore?
"I'm sorry." His words were like knives stabbing my heart a thousand times. Its like he poured an acid to stop it from beating for him... Ubos na ako. Wala na.
I'm all gone. I feel so shitty and pathetic. Natatawa na lang ako sa sarili ko nang makita ang ilang dugo sa tuhod ko. They sting yes, pero walang wala ito sa hapdi at sakit ng puso ko.
He's cruel. Love is cruel. It's painful. It's selfish. Ayoko na.. Ayoko ng magmahal. This will be the last time.
