The Real Me, What I Feel, What I See

You Lie

All you do is lie to me

I trusted you

And you broke it

not for the first time

But for the second time

Wait its more

It feels like a million.

Why did i ever trust

After all you are the reason i am this way

The sad part is you don't know

You made me depressed

You made me scared to trust

You made me scarred to get close to anyone

You made me want to die.

Why did you do this to me

You said you loved me

You said you'd never leave me

You said i was your one and only

You said you would wait 

I was gonna wait

But i guess you couldn't.

I saw the same messages you sent to me

You sent to my best friend

"my love"

"ill wait"

"You're my one and only"

How many girls have you said that to

And i thought you were getting better.

I guess i just get attached to easily

It sucks

You don't know how bad you hurt me

You don't know how much you got me to believe you

Did you know i loved you

Do you know whats sad

You were my first love.

I now know that you weren't the only guy like that

All the guys i have fell for

Were just like you

I didn't do what y'all wanted

So y'all went to someone else

Y'all left me there

Don't worry i still act unfazed to y'all.

Did you know

When someone calls me by the nickname you gave me

I remember everything

The hurt

The pain

The heartbreak

Everything.

Then i wanted to tell you

"Thank You"

If it wasn't for you

I wouldn't be stronger than i was before

I wouldn't be as cautious as i am now

I wouldn't be able to tell when people lie

I wouldn't have learned to act so well.

You know sometimes i don't want to be here

just because of you

I want to die

But i can't

I can't show you

I can't show you that you won

You will always wonder how i survived.

Ill be sitting here

ignoring your texts

Ignoring your calls

Ignoring your attempts to talk to me

I won't allow you to hurt me anymore

I won't let you win

Good Bye S.

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This is wrote for my Ex boyfriend, we just started dating around this time last year and broke up in May, We were together for about 6 months... He broke my heart this last week for what he did.. I won't be the one running back this time, I'm Done.