A Great Accident

A Great Accident: Part 3

Dan stands at the front of Phil's door, there is no turning back now. He will be telling Phil everything. He knocks at the door and Phil's mother, Kathryn, answers. "Dan!" She says cheerfully. "Good to see you. Phil is up in his room."

"Thanks, Mrs. Lester." Dan mumbles as he pushes past her.

"Here, let me show you through." Kathryn insists. Dan lets her lead the way to Phil's room, even though he already knows how to get there. "So, this was a sudden arrangement. Why did you want to come over all of a sudden?"

"Well. . . um. . ." Dan doesn't know how to answer this.

"I'm just pushing your buttons. I assume you just wanted to see my son again?" Kathryn asks.

Dan's glad that Kathryn suggests that. "Y-yes! That's exactly why I came. I was feeling kind of deprived of him."

Kathryn laughs and the two stop in front of Phil's bedroom door. Kathryn gestures to it. "I'll leave you two alone."

Dan touches his hand to the knob. This is it. He pushes open the door and finds his boyfriend laying across his bed reading a book. When he sees Dan, however, he drops the book, stands up, and goes over to him and wraps Dan in a hug.

"Hey." He murmurers and pecks the side of Dan's head. "How are you?"

"Well. . ." Dan begins. He looks into Phil's blue eyes and immediately felt weak. Now is no time to tell Phil.

"Well, what?" Phil asks. "You texted me earlier saying that you had something very important to tell me."

"Well. . . I had this very funny video in mind I want you to be a part of it." Dan lies.

Phil furrows his brows and looks quizzically at the other boy. "You came all this way just to tell me that?"

". . . I was thinking to do it here at your house, or, at least, part of it. I wanted a refresher of this environment before I decided to go through with it." The spiral of lies continue.

Phil chuckles a little and takes Dan into another hug. "Well, if that's all. . ."

Dan gulps as he snuggles into Phil. "It is."

"Okay." And that is the end of that conversation.

The rest of the night Dan feels the terror of telling Phil. The constant guilt of never telling him ate up Dan inside yet he still fears that Phil will leave him when he finally tells him, he's going to have to sometime soon. Either that or their baby can tell Phil for him.

Phil leaves Dan in his room for a minute to get the two of them a drink from downstairs. Dan begins rummaging through his bag for the copy of the sonogram. Dan thinks that maybe the photo of their child could help do the talking.

Dan finds a pen on Phil's dirty bedroom floor. He begins to write a small note on the back of it. "Baby Howell-Les"

Phil comes back into the room so Dan has to quickly shove the sonogram back into his bag. "Two waters." He announces. Phil notices the look in Dan's eyes. "What's going on?"

Dan swallows. "N-nothing. J-just thinking." Dan stammers.

"And the pen?" Phil focuses his attention to the uncapped pen in Dan's hand.

"Sometimes when I'm bored I'll play with my surroundings." Dan believes his lie is accepted by his boyfriend as Phil never questions him further.

Phil hands Dan a glass of water. Dan clears his throat. "You know, I am feeling a bit peckish. Mind running back down and getting us a snack?" This is not a lie. Since Dan is feeding for two his appetite has grown, but he also needs to get Phil back out so he could finish the note.

Phil nods and leaves the room again. Dan gets the picture back out and finishes what he was writing. "Baby Howell-Lester, 5 Weeks"

After Dan is pleased he decides to place the sonogram on Phil's pillow and covers it up with his duvet. If Dan is going to have difficulty telling him aloud, he hopes Phil will get the hint this way.

Phil returns with some crackers and crisps in his hands. "Here's the snacks." He throws the crisps over to Dan who catches them. "Are you happy now?"

"Yes. Thank you." Dan smiles as he opens the bag in his hands.

Phil takes a seat on his bed as he shovels crackers into his mouth. Dan's breath hitches, this might be the moment where Phil finds the picture. He watches his boyfriend as he gets himself comfortable on the bed when suddenly Phil says. "It's kind of cold in here. Do you want to snuggle with me under the covers?"

Dan is hesitant. He isn't sure this is when he wants Phil to find out. "Are-are you sure?" He carefully says his words. "I mean-"

Phil has begun pulling at his duvet. "Yes. Come snuggle with me." Dan drops the crisps on the floor and stands. "I feel like something is-" And he stops mid sentence. Phil has his duvet pulled back enough to expose the sonogram on his pillow. "Dan. . ." He says slowly. "What's this?" He picks up the picture and shows it to Dan who closes his eyes to avoid looking at Phil.

Phil turns the photo around. "Baby Howell-Lester, 5 weeks?!" His voice cracks a little when he announces the writing on the back.

Dan could feel the tears building up in his eyes. "Y-yes." He sniffles and wipes the tears away. He walks over and slumps down on Phil's bed.

Phil wraps his arms around Dan. "Bear," He whispers to Dan. "please calm down and explain."

Dan isn't sure if he could calm down, he has broken down into full tears now. "B-b-baby." He mumbles watery.

"Baby?" Phil tries to confirm what Dan had said. "I understand this is a picture of a fetus, Dan, but why?"

Dan places both hands on his stomach and caresses it gently. Phil raises an eyebrow, confused at first but then he gets the hint. His eyes widen as he looks at his boyfriend. "Dan, are we going to have a baby?" Dan looks down at his abdomen and nods. Phil giggles. Dan looks up at his boyfriend and sniffles, not the reaction he was thinking, but the reaction he was hoping. "We're going to be parents?"

"Remember when I texted you telling you I've been feeling sick?" Dan says as he dries his tears with the back of his hand. "Well, that little guy in the picture there was the cause of all that."

Phil is full-out laughing now. "Oh, we're going to be parents, Dan!" He's exclaiming now. He pulls Dan into a big kiss.

Once they part Dan takes the picture from Phil. "This is your copy. Where shall we put it at?"

Phil looks around his room. "Hmm. . . How 'bout above my bed?"

"You want it taped above your bed?" Dan confirms.

"Yes. I want to remember every night before falling asleep that you and I have created life."

Dan chuckles. "That sounds worse than it actually is." Phil laughs too. They find a roll of tape on Phil's dresser and they tape it up on Phil's wall, above the head of his bed.

"Should we tell my parents while you're here too?" Phil asks after the sonogram is hung up.

Dan looks down at his hands. If he does this it will all be over, except for their viewers. How is he going to tell his viewers that he and Phil are having a baby?

He still has to get through Phil's parents first. Would they even like him after this? Kathryn was very chummy with him when he first got here. Will that all change? Without thinking about his answer Dan quickly says: "Yeah" and Phil begins to escort him down to where his mother is.

"Mum, where's dad?" Phil asks. Dan suddenly felt himself ready to back out and run away.

"He's in the dining room." Kathryn replies. "Why do you ask?"

"Can you meet Dan, dad, and I in there?" Phil asks. "We have something we need to tell you."