Music Inspired Stories

I do (Last Part)

I woke up as a ray of sunlight brushed against my face. I looked at my bedside clock to find out that it's already 8 in the morning. Gusto ko pa matulog eh! Pero alam ko namang hindi na ako makakatulog. Bumangon na lang ako.

Bullshit lang. Kahit saan ako tumingin, nakikita pa din kita, naaalala pa din kita. How you tickled me to wake me up. Yung ikaw yung namimili ng susuotin ko. Yung pagaayos mo sa kama ko, yaya nga kita diba? 

Yung pagluluto mo sa kitchen ko habang suot suot mo yung pink apron ko. Yung kilitian session natin sa couch. Yung movie marathon natin every saturday which is yung day off natin. Lahat lahat.

I brushed away the thoughts before I start crying, again. Kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ka na babalik sa akin. Maybe you are happy now, you're happy with someone else. Pero, what did I do wrong? Am I too clingy? Or masyado akong naging maluwag? 

Hindi mo man lang sinabi sa akin para nabago ko pa. Sana sinabi mo na lang. ang hirap kasi eh. Parang kelan lang, nagpropose ka. tapos ngayon.. wala na. You left me hanging, miserable. you stomped on mybheart mercilessly. Hindi ka man lang nagdalawang isip saktan ako.

Napatigil ako sa pagluluto nung narinig kong nagri ring yung phone ko. Patakbo kong kinuha yung phone ko sa lamesa just to be disappointed. Oo na, ine expect kong ikaw yung tumatawag. Masama bang umasa pa rin na baka matauhan ka at malaman mong ako pa din?

But, nagtataka ako because it was your mom. So I answered it after a few rings.

"Hello po?" I tried trying my voice not to crack.

[Hello hija? Can we talk?] I noticed that you're mom was crying. What did you do this time?

 "About saan po tita?" 

[It's about Ethan. Are you busy?]

"No tita. It's alright."

[Okay, Can we meet this afternoon? Are you free?]

"O sige po. Saan po?"

[Sa ***** Cafe. 5 pm. Is that okay with you?]

"Okay po. See you po."

[Thank you Hija. See you later.]

And I heard the call ended.

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 I sighed as I went out of the car. Hindi ko alam pero kinakabahan ako sa paguusapan namin ng mom mo. I went inside the cafe at nakita ko na agad si tita Victoria.

"Good afternoon po tita. Sorry po nalate ako, traffic po kasi," I apologized

"No Hija, that's okay. Kakarating ko lang din." You just look exactly your mom. "Okay Hija, what do you want?"

 So, we ordered. We ate in a still silence. And kinakabahan talaga ako. 

"Hija, hindi ko na patatagalin pa. I want to show you something. Can you come with me?" Sabi ni tita na parang maiiyak na.

"Are you okay, tita?" I asked worriedly.

"I'm okay. It's about Ethan." 

"A-ano pong tungkol kay Ethan?" Kinakabahan kong tanong.

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Habang papunta kami sa isang certain place, kinakabahan talaga ako. Ano bang nangyari sayo Ethan? Did she leave you? Did she left you hanging katulad ng ginawa mo sakin? Eh bakit ako? Kasi ako, mahal pa kita?

Nagulat na lang ako nung nag pull over kami sa tapat ng hospital. Kinakabahan na talaga ako. Sana naman hindi tama yung hinala ko. Sana...

"T-tita?" I asked her with teary eyes.