Don't Let Me Go

11

    "Shit" I curse to myself. I look down at my finger, hoping its not burnt. Who knew lighting a candle could be so hurtful.
      I had come home from Jace's house and felt the need to unwind and relax. Lighting candles, playing music, and the best part of it all was putting on a baggy pair of sweats.  I sing along to the sweet melodies coming from my record player. I pull my hair into a ponytail , glad it's finally off my neck. I need to distract myself from these feelings. I'm missing the slight contact from Jace's fingers. I find myself singing and swaying my hips to a favorite song of mine.
    "Yeah, we're dressed in black from head to toe"
     I spin while I happily hum along. I throw myself onto my bed loving the feeling of its comfort.  Picking up my journal from under my pillow I open to the next blank page. I tend to write my feelings since I don't have anyone to vent to. "You can't hold in your feelings" my grandmother had constantly told me this since I was young , it's always stuck with me. Ever since she passed I've found myself distancing myself from others.
     Thinking of Jace makes me confused,I've known him for a short period time . Yet I still find that he is wondering around in my mind. The only other person I've really connected with was my ex , Derek. How could be just drop me like that? How could he just completely disregard my feelings? My phone catches my attention, picking it up I read the message I've just received.
"Isn't Derek Wilson your ex??"
        It's from my lab partner, she usually only texts me if we have a project do.  My thumbs quickly hit the keyboard. I read over the message before sending.
       " Yea, what about him?"
Her response puts me back in my previous state of confusion.
"He's spreading rumors about you online..."

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Sorry for another short chapter. Tried to make it longer but kinda got writers block. And I wanted to leave it on a cliff hanger😈