My Jaded Sanity (Bdsm)

Beneficial Confession.

I wake up to someone jiggling me; I quickly jump up: bad dream. "Perry, the police are here" it's just Flaure; Blake is invading my every sense, it's like my soul despises him but, my body is in love with him.

"Okay, let me just wash my face and I'll be there in a min" I say climbing out of bed, "okay darl" Flaure says helping me up and walking out the door.

I walk to the bathroom and look at the mess I am. Splashing the water on my face I look deeply into my eyes, this is my fault? I'm a slut: I break up with my boyfriend and sleep with another guy only 3 days after. I'm at serious war with myself.

I walk into the living room that looks somewhat cleaner than it was but Flaure looks exhausted. "Hello Ms. Lacen, I'm detective Cartson, I'm here to discuss what happened to you last night" I look at him, noticing the strangely familiar eyes; I've seen them before, but that's irrelevant.

"Hello.." I say holding onto my arm subtly, "Ms. Ray, would you mind stepping out of the room while I talk to Perry, it's strictly confidential and I'm sure she'd be more comfortable" he says with an apologetic look on his face, I silently detest: I want her her. I say nothing.

"So, Ms. Lacen, how did the night start, where were you?" he questions scribbling something down on his notebook. "I err.. Was at Delario Karma, the club and I was drinking, a stranger.. C-came and sat next to me.." I'm finding it quite hard to talk; I really don't want to do this: he latches on, "I know this is really hard Perry but you just need to tell me so we can sort this out and help you"

"how do you know my name!" I abruptly question, "I err.. Ms Ray told me" he replies a bit taken aback. "No.. Yes, sorry" I say: coming back to earth a little bit. "Resume?" He says looking up with a sincere glance. "yes."

"So what happened next?", "he took me to a room.. He went for a moment for a phone call, when he came back he began tying me up, I did something to make him angry so... we had intercourse" I look down at my knee, trembling.

"Was he rough or mis treating in any way?" he questions looking at my knee. " Um.. Yes.." I say recollecting the slits and spanks, "Can you remember how exactly?"

"Is that necessary?" I don't want to repeat it what so ever.. "Yes, we need detail to link it to any other rape case" I don't want to refer to it as rape.. But I do. Why has Blake got so deep into me..

"I .. Can't remember" I say looking down, "Okay.. what happened next"

" I fell asleep for a while, I woke up n-handcuffed. Some guy was in the suite, he p-put a collar on me.. All I remember is running out the door after that. I called a taxi and the driver was Blake" he nods and quickly takes notes of my recollection. "Okay, what about after that?" I let out a small sigh. "He drove us into the middle of the woods, he forced himself on me and had sex, he had a knife" His gaze rolls to me; I see confusion crawling onto his face. "What did he do?" he questions abruptly, "He threatened me so I got the knife from his p-pocket and he got hold of my hand and tried bending it, instead I stabbed him" As much as my conscience feels great, waves of anxiety and worry flood my thoughts; have I just made a big mistake?

I can't read Detective Cartson's expression. "What happened next?" he questions, worryingly, "I ran" I say: preparing myself for the worst. "Where were you?" I bite my lip "I can't remeber, it looked like a woods, it wasn't far from here" he runs his fingers through his hair...

"Okay, it's obvious that it's quite hard to talk at the moment, from what you've told me I'll be starting the investigation, as far as the stabbing goes, if we find his body we will need to look into it.. Is there anything else you'd like to tell me Perry?" he looks at me vividly, "I... Er.. He owns Delario Karma" it comes back to me "The club next to Delario Palm?" wait there were two? "I think so, what's his name?"

"Blake"

"Well thank you Ms. Lacen, I will be in touch, goodbye" he gets up and walks to the door, "if anything else comes up, just ring me" "okay, I will do, thanks" and with that he walks out of the door.

I have a sense of relief and anxiety whirling around in me; I'm sure I didn't stab him that hard, it all just happened so quickly..

All I can do is, wait.