My Random Book

For Him

Really regretting past choices. Really wish I hadn't given up on us.
I often sit and wonder what would have happened to us if I hadn't have ended it. I wonder if I would have ever actually seen you.
And I more i think about it i realise that I never stopped loving you, I was just sick and tired of all the pain and fighting, so I thought that ending it would solve everything, and that hopefully I would forget about you and move on.

But I am sorry I could never move on from you. You changed me so much that I wasn't sure what to do next. I am sorry that I still want to talk to you all the time, but I am do scared in case I start a fight. I am sorry that I still want to know if your okay. I am sorry that I want you to be happy. I am sorry that I couldn't give you everything you wanted.
But most of all I am sorry that I thought I could ever stop loving you, when I clearly can't!

I have been to scared to say anything in case you have already moved on, and if I ever found out that you have it would probably kill me.
I know now it's too late for us, I shouldn't have throw it all away.
I am so sorry that I loved you too much.
But mostly I am sorry that I can never stop loving you.