Aftertaste [COMPLETED]

Chapter 17 :: There is No Tomorrow-Land

LOGAN'S P.O.V.

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"SO, HOW'D IT feel to be homeless for a day?" I heard her laugh from the other line and it made me smile.

"Um, it was a humbling experience, I can definitely say that much. But honestly, I'm just glad to finally be home."

It was eight in the morning and I was lying in bed after having spent nearly a half hour in a dumpster.

"I'll bet. I don't think I'll ever think I'll get that stench out of my nose. There isn't enough new car smell in the world..."

"You think that's bad?," she said. "I showered for nearly two hours, when I finally got home, I scrubbed my body from top to bottom, and I still couldn't shake the dirty feeling. I ended up having a nightmare about being trapped in a landfill and had to take another shower."

"Yeah, I-"

"Logan-" She cut me off and then stopped mid sentence. She said, "Oh. Sorry. What were you saying?"

"Oh, no. You go ahead."

"Well, umm. I was just going to say...IthinkI'mreadytobreakupwithJames." There was silence and I was stunned. I was so elated that she finally chose to make that decision. I smiled. Then after embracing the precious moment, I said, "Well, that was sudden, what made you finally decide?"

"Well...I was thinking about how much fun we had last night. Even though I really thought it was the last night of my life at one point." She laughed and so did I.

"But, I was just so happy last night, and I felt so alive. Then I realised... I want to feel like that all the time, and I can't do that if I have James weighing me down."

"Well, I'm glad you've finally made the decision to be happy."

"Yeah...me too. Oh, Logan? Before I forget, if I break things off with him, do you you think you could go talk to him to make sure he gets the message? It's just that he's kind of a scary guy, and I really don't want to get hurt again."

"Yeah. Of course, I'll try... But, Berlin? What does this mean...for us? You breaking up with James and all?"

There was a pause and I could tell that she was deciding on how put it.

"Logan, first of all, again, you're in a relationship. And because you're my friend, because I really care about you- about us- our friendship, that is, I'm gonna make this clear to you now. I don't feel the same way you feel about me. I thought I did at first but now...I guess I just don't share the same feelings."

I felt as though I had been blindsided; her body language told me one thing, yet her mouth told me another. "I don't understand. That night on the roof, the kiss-"

"Logan, you're my best friend and I don't want to ruin what we have, but I just don't think I could trust you to be there for me the way I would need you to—in a relationship."

"W- what do you mean? Haven't I always been the one there when you were going through...well, everything?"

"That day at the strand. Don't you remember? You walked away from me. I confided in you and you just, abandoned me."