Mental

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Riley,

I walked into school feeling gloomy. I barely had any sleep last night because all I thought about was Lucas. The bell rang signaling us juniors to go to fourth period. To my luck, Lucas's class was right next to mine so when we get out, we see each other. He got out of class with his friends as I walked past them. I could feel his eyes staring at me as I walked away. Even though the first time we talked was yesterday evening, I still couldn't have the bravery to talk to him in person.

The reason why is, Lucas has a lot of hoe magnets on him like a damn refrigerator. Lucas is 17 and tall like a 30 year old basketball player. The reason girls like him is because of his tall frame except me. I like him because he is nice, funny, and charming. I frowned. He barely notices me and all I do is notice him. Guess this is life.

"Hello Riley." Fae greeted.
"Hi" I spoke shyly. "Tell me why exactly you called me to Walmart at 7:30 pm Riley Johnson ? It's time for my marathon for once upon a time" She whined. I rolled my eyes at her.

"We are here to buy Lucas a gift for Christmas and leave it at his doorstep so he doesn't know who it's from." I told her while we walked into Walmart. She rolled her eyes and began typing away on her iPhone. I walked to the sports section since Lucas did play basketball and football , why not get him some new equipment? I scanned my eyes over the gym duffle bags.

Which one will he like ?

I grabbed a black one with blue straps since blue was his favorite color. I turned around to see Fae posing to take a selfie which caused me to laugh. I then picked up a new football and basketball which were pricey since I had to pick the top brands but it's Lucas so it's worth it. I bought a pack of gaterade , energy drinks , fruit bars and some candy to put in his duffle bag. I then payed and Fae and I left. We got into my bmw and drove off.

"So Riley, how are your meltdowns?" She asked me out of no where. My throat went dry and I tightened my grip on the steering wheel. I have mental breakdowns basically from anxiety and stress.

"I-i um , t-they are good. Yes they are good." I struggled to get out. We pulled up to my house and got out , carrying out stuff with us. I sighed and closed my eyes to breathe before I start panicking again . Fae noticed and put her hand on my back, trying to soothe me down.

"Thanks." I mumbled. She gave me a sympathetic look and smiled. I always knew she wouldn't understand how I was feeling. No matter how much I try to explain.

Nobody will know how I feel.

( Riley in the media 👌🏾 )