Aku Cinta Kamu

V: Confused

Alec

I glanced up in alarm worried that it was Jace or worse yet my parents. I relaxed when it was actually my sister.

"Alec?" She asked again incredulously.

I kept my head down not wanting to meet her questioning eyes, instead I had my eyes trained on my now bloody hands.

"By the angel Alec! Why would you do this to yourself?" She exclaimed and sat down beside me on my bed.

She took my trembling hands into hers and asked softly, "Magnus?"

I nodded silently my tears threatening to fall again. She stood up immediately, her eyes flashed with anger and her posture wasn't friendly. Without asking her, I know what she wanted to do.

"P-please Izzy," I croaked. "It wasn't his fault."

There was once when she said she would kill Magnus if he hurt me. Whether literally or not I'm not sure but just to make sure.

"Oh Alec..what did you do?" She took her seat beside me again.

I shook my head slowly, I didn't want to tell anyone anything. I don't want to be reminded of what I did, I just want to be left alone.

"Ju-just leave me alone w-will you?" My voice shook and I bet I look so pathetic right now.

She probably took pity on me and she left without another word. My thoughts wandered back to Camille, can she really help me to get Magnus back?

Stop it Alec! I mentally scolded myself. I screwed up so much already, I can't screw up anymore.

But since you screwed everything up already, what will another mistake do?

Shut up!

Surely you want to get Magnus back don't you? This is your only chance Alec-

"Shut the hell up!" I hissed at myself.

Just take this chance, just kill that vampire.

"Shut up shut up shut up!!" I screamed.

My head is pounding and it hurts so much! I can't take this anymore! Everything around me seemed like it was twisting and turning and I couldn't even focus on anything.

I tried laying down on my bed but my head hurts even more. I curled into a ball with my hands pressed tightly against my head praying that the pain would stop.

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Oh my goshhhh. I'm so so so terribly sorry for not updating in like more than a month. 😓😓

And I know this chapter sucks like hell and it's so freaking short but this is all I can come up with.

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