Aku Cinta Kamu

IV: I miss you

Magnus

Was I doing the right thing? It has only been there days since I last saw him and I've already started to miss him.

If I leave him now, slowly as time goes by, I would forgot him.

Would I really? Would I ever be able to forgot my darling shadowhunter? I know I couldn't. Not that I would either.

Alec. My Alexander. He is the most perfect thing that ever happened to me. I have no idea why-

The buzzer sounded, jolting me out of my thoughts. I scrowled and ignored it, because I know who is behind that door and he isn't someone I wanted to see.

"You better open up the door Magnus, or I swear I would break this pathetic door down and then start tearing down your house." He started counting down and I sighed.

I walked to the door and swung it open right before he reached one. Before I can comprehend what is happening, I was shoved backwards and I fell on top of my dining table, breaking it into two.

"I'm not in the mood to play with you Jace. You don't just show up in my house and start acting like you own this place because guess what, the person who owns it is standing right in front of you." I snarled, getting up swiftly, this guy is starting to piss me off.

"And you don't get to hurt Alec like that," his narrowed eyes met mine and we stood like that, eye to eye without saying a word.

"Have you seen Alec since u broke up with him? I'm guessing not, so I'm here to tell you exactly how much pain he is in. He shut himself in his room all day and he doesn't even come out to eat. He doesn't want to talk to any of us and we don't know how to help him. And do you know Magnus, do you know that he cuts himself? Is he just some toy to you? He was so in love with you Magnus and what did he do to deserve this in return?" He looked away and his anger faded.

Alec. My darling Alec. What have I done to you?

I sighed, I could picture Alexander in my head, so vulnerable yet so strong. He doesn't deserve me. He doesn't deserve the hell that I put him in, my heart breaks knowing what I have done to him but I can't do anything about it. I have done it and I need to continue with this act.

"I don't want to deal with this right now Jace. I get that you hate me, I understand why you hate me. But I honestly couldn't care less about how you feel or how he feels. I don't love him anymore and I hope you will go back and tell him just that."

He is better off knowing how much I hate him, because time heals pain. As time goes by, so will his pain and a clean break would do him good.

Jace opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off, pushing him out of the door, "I don't want to see you anymore or any of your friends. Stay out of my life and I will gladly stay out of yours." And I slammed the door right in his face.