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Friday, February 8th, 2013
Yesterday I did something that surprised the girls I was with and myself. I mentioned that Rachel, Felicia and I were going shopping right? Well, Riley tagged along, too because… he’s Riley? :P at any rate we were walking down the street and joking around when I saw this girl who couldn’t have been more than Katie’s age hugging a light pole with a few tear streaks on her face. I waved at the girls and Riley to hush and I just walked up to her. I had no idea why or what I was going to do but I just walked over to her and hugged her. I held her tight and then the Tenth Avenue North song ‘You Are More’ popped in my head and so I told her “You’re worth more than this. Far more.” I said a few other things before pushing up her sweatshirt sleeve and mine, too. I’ve never shown anybody, let alone a random stranger and I don’t know what compelled me to but, well I did I showed her my three scars and I said “This, doesn’t help anything.” Because it doesn’t, it never did. It only made things worse. I said a few things about God but I can’t remember exactly how I worded it but as I finished someone pulled up in a minivan and yelled at her to get in. I stood there and watched her drive off and pointed up at the sky hoping that she would think about what I said, that she would get my message, ‘look up, to God.’ The others had hung back as I talked and hugged her and the joined me. Felicia put her arm around me and squeezed me saying “wow, I can’t believe you did that.” I was kind of out of it after that and I don’t know, like, why would I not do it? I don’t know if it did any good. For all I know she’s cutting again, maybe even committed suicide and I wish I could KNOW that I did something important, changed her life, you know? Whatever, that’s probably being over dramatic, like really, I, some complete and utter stranger said a few religious things to her, like that really made any difference? I should have cleaned her cuts, taken her to Adam or mom or something, not let her walk off back into whatever she’s struggling with L But at the same time its, weird, you know, after Adam’s lesson Sunday, it keeps bouncing around in my head; maybe I did change her life. ~Thea
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