Goodbye Letters

10. Theadora

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Friday, February 8th, 2013                

Yesterday I did something that surprised the girls I was with and myself.  I mentioned that Rachel, Felicia and I were going shopping right? Well, Riley tagged along, too because… he’s Riley? :P at any rate we were walking down the street and joking around when I saw this girl who couldn’t have been more than Katie’s age hugging a light pole with a few tear streaks on her face.  I waved at the girls and Riley to hush and I just walked up to her.  I had no idea why or what I was going to do but I just walked over to her and hugged her.  I held her tight and then the Tenth Avenue North song ‘You Are More’ popped in my head and so I told her “You’re worth more than this.  Far more.”   I said a few other things before pushing up her sweatshirt sleeve and mine, too.  I’ve never shown anybody, let alone a random stranger and I don’t know what compelled me to but, well I did I showed her my three scars and I said “This, doesn’t help anything.”   Because it doesn’t, it never did.  It only made things worse.  I said a few things about God but I can’t remember exactly how I worded it but as I finished someone pulled up in a minivan and yelled at her to get in.  I stood there and watched her drive off and pointed up at the sky hoping that she would think about what I said, that she would get my message, ‘look up, to God.’ The others had hung back as I talked and hugged her and the joined me.  Felicia put her arm around me and squeezed me saying “wow, I can’t believe you did that.”   I was kind of out of it after that and I don’t know, like, why would I not do it? I don’t know if it did any good.  For all I know she’s cutting again, maybe even committed suicide and I wish I could KNOW that I did something important, changed her life, you know? Whatever, that’s probably being over dramatic, like really, I, some complete and utter stranger said a few religious things to her, like that really made any difference? I should have cleaned her cuts, taken her to Adam or mom or something, not let her walk off back into whatever she’s struggling with L But at the same time its, weird, you know, after Adam’s lesson Sunday, it keeps bouncing around in my head; maybe I did change her life.  ~Thea

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