The Outcasts

Ruin

I don't know how many days have past, just that the screams of my friends have gotten louder and are starting to weaken. I can only imagine what they're  doing to them. My "Uncle" has been coming around, questioning me.. Testing me. He's trying to see what makes me tick. Testing to see how long before i could snap. But I won't snap that easy. So I've been playing along, until I get an opening to my freedom.

That night I laid down, and tried to sleep. I heard music coming room one of the other cells. I listened careful.  ~Welcome to the land of ruin, where we all come to die. Lay down your sorrow and cross your heart and die.This is the moment we break. I swear this isn't an honest mistake. Give up your hope, give up your faith. There's nothing left for fucks sake. This world was born in lies now it dies in my  hate. And we feel so alone. ~

Deep down I felt as if someone had died, but I just didn't know who. I hope to god that it wasn't one of them.. I relaxed myself and fell into a deep sleep.

I started to dream, everything went semi dark. I could make out an outline of the background. Someone else was with me, I didn't know who or what. They just sat there staring at  me. I could hear their heavy breathing. Until it finally said something. "Do you really think you could escape me?" The person stood up and moved closer where I could see him. He looked like me, but there was something off about him. "What are you talking about? The only thing I'm trying to escape is this damn prison" He stepped closer. "You're very wrong,Damien. The only thing you're trying to escape from is yourself. And you can never escape from yourself" I blinked in disbelief. "Wh-what? What are you talking about?"  "You,Damien. I'm talking about your hatred. The hatred you have locked away. Can't you feel it? Slowly leaking out and overcoming you, causing you to kill?" Raising my voice "What the fuck are you trying to say! I'm nothing but a human being just like everyone else!!"

"But you're not human ,Damien. And you already know that" I balled my fists up "I am human. And I  won't  let pieces of shit like you tell me any different"   A sly smile crept across his face "Oh? We'll just have to see about that now won't we?" I stared at him and remained quiet. "No matter what you do, you can't escape. You will never escape your hate" And with that he disappeared and I woke up.

Why would I dream about that? What was going on.. I sat up thinking about what he had said. Thinking that he was wrong, shrugging it off and trying to convince myself he was wrong and that whatever was eating at me I  could kill it and make it go away. I tried to go back to sleep. But then I heard his voice "Pathetic child, you can't kill hate"

I closed my eyes tighter and went back to sleep.