Love Needs Expression (PART TWO) 1980's

Chapter 23

Weeks later a magazine come out in stores that has a picture of me getting a pregnancy. This is what happens when eyewitnesses and cameras follow you everywhere to try to go. Its really my fault actually, but....I needed to know. I went to a minimarket wearing sunglasses.
I remember avoiding the magazine cover and article and just used the sticks. The first one was negative....I took the second one a few days later and it was still negative and I was upset myself, and so was Michael. I felt terrible that I had  upset him, but then again, "Its human nature......I can't change anything."
When Katherine called my phone I answered, and she asked me if I was pregnant or not, and I softly answered, " No, I'm not. I checked twice and it was a negative."
" Its alright, dear," she said, I could hear Janet in the backround, " How have you and Michael been?"
" I've been fine lately, actually! Were just sorta finishing up on the tour rehersals getting ready for Tokyo. I'm just going to perform for the first month cause I've gotta work."
" Oh, I see."
" Yeah, I am looking foreward for the whole family to get together again and catch up. God, I wish it could be soon but we're all so busy!"
" You kids just work so hard, and im so proud. Good luck with your rehersals, dear. Is Michael around the house?"
" Yes, I think he's in the kitchen. Give me a second--nice talking to you!" He had invited Dileo over for lunch and a brief talk. They were sitting in the kitchen. " Its your mother," I whispered in his ear handing him the phone. He took it and said, " This will only take a minute, Frank." I went outside to check on the zoo animals, and as I went to brush Louie and Lola's clumped up fur, I felt a little bit tired. Which, In midday, since it was about noon I don't usually feel. After feeding the animals and serving Michael and Frank lunch. took a nap......till four.
part 87: When I woke up it was nearly night, and the sun was about to go down. I had forgotten to prepare dinner so I ran downstairs still in my sleepwear checking the menu.

I heard a chuckle from the seating area near the kitchen--it was Dileo. Looking me up and down, chuckling at my pajamas and messy hair. " Well," he moved the cigar to the other side of his mouth, " This is the real you, eh, Jennifer?"
" Frank, shut up," I snapped, " And you're STILL here? I thought you left hours ago."
" We were just finishing, dear." Michael assured.
Dileo let out a grunt getting up from his chair, " Nice talkin' to ya, Mike." he walked over to me, puffing rings of smoke in my face, " And uh...thanks for lunch."
" Don't mention it." I smiled then let him pass me before I held my breath. *after he leaves* " I CANNOT believe you!" I said to Michael.
" What?!"
" Letting him smoke that doggone cigar in this house--ugh!" I cracked open every window.
" I'm sorry, I.....didn't think he was gonna smoke in the house. And he's Frank......"
" I cant work with this," and after spraying the house fruitbased scent, things were a bit better.
" Hey, you alright? You must have been tired you were out almost the whole afternoon!"
" Yeah, I'm fine," I said, " My bodys has been getting worn out and exhausted for some reason.
" Oh," he said, " You think you'll still be able to go on tour?"
I stroked a hand through my hair, " Oh yeah, yeah......I'm sure I'll be fine. I gotta start dinner. The animals are fed and the gardens are greener that spring so you won't have to worry bout a thing!"
" I know why you were so tired." he smiled.
I laughed then shrugged, walking over to the kitchen.
Weeks came and went and I was workin and he was as well. It was a bout a week untill we departed to Asia. I was actually quite excited.
We were rehearsing for the tour the beginning week of September and I was growing a peculiar behavior.
One sunny rehersal, we were practicing, " You Are My Lovely One" and " Wanna Be Startin Somethin"
Michael, myself and the other guys were dancing while Q watched us.
I was dancing the original steps as my hair whipped and I moved with the music. But I quickly felt light-headed. Yet when I put my hand on my forhead trying to hold myself straight up, no one seemed to noticed so I kept going......
Q noticed I was struggling a bit cause he drew all his attention to me and he pulled me over, " You alright?"
" Yeah, I'm fine."
".....You sure?"
" Uh-huh."
" You looked like you were gonna pass out over there."
" I'll admit I got a bit light-headed."
" Well...take it a notch down."