Deaming in blue

12: "Collin... its Collin..."

Because I haven't updated this in forever. samcline3 Young_Savannah_ this is for you two ❤ btw MY SOULMATE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS TO WRITE THIS?!?!

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Soon enough, Collin was sound asleep once again, his hand in his hair. Before he had fallen asleep he was telling me how his hair was soft and fluffy, and what products he used in it. It was so cute! I guess him playing with his own hair made him extremely sleepy and he just fell right asleep. I wish I could fall asleep that easily, I've never been able to. I lay back, closing my eyes and focusing on Collins soft breathing. I could hear his breathe in and out faintly, and it helped me fall asleep.

"Who is he?" Des growls, and I snap awake, sitting up straight in bed. Des was actually here? In my room? How?

I notice that she was looking down at my phone, where I was still facetiming with Collin. I didn't know what time it was because I was too terrified to pick my phone up. I was scared because I knew that if I did, Des would surely pick it up and chuck it across the room. Des had anger issues, bad ones. She never usually got mad at me, but when she did, it was extremely bad, and very scary. She would yell, scream, punch things, kick things and break things. She had tiny mental breakdowns every time I had made her mad but she would never cry. She just got angry.

I stay still, looking up at her, then down at my phone. Collin was still sleeping like a baby, which was good but weird. When Des spoke, it didn't wake him, and she was kind of loud, loud enough to wake me up. Maybe he is a deep sleeper. "What are you doing here Des?" I ask, pulling my eyebrows together. I was very confused at this point. I thought she was still in Hawaii. She never told me she was coming. Did she tell Gram? How did she know where I lived? How did she get all the way over here? How did she get the money? Why was she here?

"Who is he?" She asks, this time even louder than before, giving my shoulder a shove. Now, this was really scaring me. She had never used physical actions against me, only verbal abuse and it wasn't even that bad. Something was different, none of this felt right. I looked down at my phone again, Collin still sleeping like a baby. My heart was racing when I looked back up at Des. She looked hurt, but it was masked by anger and hatred.

"Collin... its Collin..." I murmur and hear a faint 'yes sweetheart?' which snapped me awake.

I didn't realize that I had been talking in my sleep, which woke him up and he woke me up. "What do you need babe?" He asked and I shook my head, not really wanting to tell him about my awkward dream. I just wanted to put the past behind me.

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straight up though guys, I feel like I should just delete this piece of crap story 😂