Complicated

~8~

Eva's POV

He releases me. I can't keep going with this. We're just roommates. Nothing more. "Luke, it's fine. I'm not mad. I should be sorry. I should've stopped you," I say in between sobs.

"No. Let's just forget it," he says. I stand there.

"Okay, but let's never do it again," I say. I see a disappointed look on his face. He quickly recovers and nods. I nod and head to the washroom.

I look at myself. Black stains run on my cheeks. I grab a makeup wipe and take it off. I rinse off my face and go back outside. I go into the closet and her dressed. I decide to relieve my stress by having alone time.

I grab my purse and walk out of the door. Leaving Luke. I walk out to my car and drive off to the mall.

I pull up into the mall parking lot. People walk by and are talking. I sigh and walk to the entrance. I enter the mall and walk to Abercrombie & Fitch.

I flip through various tops and bottoms. I pick out a black skater skirt and this striped black and white top. I pay for it and walk out.

The rest of my time is spent looking in shops, like Aeropostale and Ardene's. I pick out some tops and a pair of jeans.

After it all, I decide to grab some coffee. I walk into the tiny Starbucks. "Hello, what can I get you?" The short, plump woman asks.

"Umm... Just a caffe latte," I say. The woman nods and I pay. I walk over to the pick up section.

I grab my drink and leave. When I'm walking to my car, I feel better. Relieved.

•••

3 days later

I throw my shoes off and onto the shoe rack. I walk over to my bed. Luke is sat perched on his bed. On his phone. He doesn't bother to look up. These past few days we haven't really talked. I kinda am fine with it.

But every part of me wants him. So badly. But I know it's wrong. I walk to my open textbook, I left and start reading. I flip through each page. Reading it carefully.

I get out of my spot after a bit, to get my phone. I bump into Luke. He looks down. I walk past. He doesn't move. What's up with him staring at me?

"Eva..." He whispers.

"Yes?" I say. He walks up to me. He tucks a strand of loose hair behind my ear. He places both his hands on my waist. He places his lips on mine. I give in. A voice in my head tells me no. But I can't stop. I don't have control.

He grabs my thighs and lifts me up. He brings me to the bed. Just like what happened at the party. "Evelyn, you know you can say no, right?" He whispers.

"I want you to keep going..." I reply bluntly. He nods.

"For sure?" He assures. I nod.

He begins planting kisses on my neck, earning a few moans. I bite my lip to not make any noise. He flips us over. He's on top of me. He kisses me again.

I hear the room door click open. We don't stop. It opens and Amanda walks in. "Hey Ev-" she stands in horror. We stop and we both turn in sync. I sit there in horror. "Umm... I'm just gonna... Ehrm... Uhhh go now..." She says and leaves. I can't help but giggle.

On the inside I know what Amanda is going to say. But it's funny how she walked in. Luke joins in. He then shrugs and we proceed.

He stops and moves his head lower, down to my area. He slides my pants off and enters it with his tongue. I gasp at his suddenness. He circles his tongue around. "Luke..." I moan. He stops after and I'm glad I didn't release.

I smile at him. I want him. And that's all. He rolls over to the side and lays down. "I-Ummm... D-do you wanna go out on a date?" Luke asks. I snap my head towards his. NO. Way. "tomorrow?" He seems nervous. Once in his life. A wave of guilt washes over me. Noah. I Can't tell him. I want him and Luke. I'm selfish and greedy.

I shake my thoughts off. "Uhhh... S-sure. Of course!" I say. I'm a horrible person. I don't deserve them. Ugh I'll go but that doesn't mean we're together.