Barely alive

Chapter four.

"Gosh I missed this" he said as he hugged me tightly rubbing my back "I missed you too, but really.. If you don't want me living with you I don't have to.." He looked at me odly "Amelia.. Someone hurt you, someone who is still out there, I'm going to protect you if it's the last thing I do" he said as he kisses me softly on the cheek, we sat in the car and I put my legs in a pretzel shape on the seat, "you hungry?" He said to me as he rubbed my leg, I turned and looked out the window "not really... I just feel sick all the time" he looked over as I said it and sighed "Amelia, who can help you if you're not even going to help yourself?" I looked over at him with tears in my eyes "well I guess no one." He looked at me with his big blue eyes "I didn't mean it... I just want you healthy baby" we pulled up to the house where I decided to go get in the shower "want me to join?" He said while grabbing my waist and kissing me, as much as I wanted to my smile fell from my face as I began to remember the last time I had sex was the rape, "I want to, but I don't want you to get the impression we are going to have sex" I said as he let go of my waist and walked away while saying okay. I began looking at myself in the mirror after I blow dried my wet hair just thinking about the scar I have on my neck to remind me for the rest of my life as I began to grow angrier and angrier as I punched the glass and felt it shatter into my hand.