Unbroken

Chapter 18

"I'm fine..." He mumbled. "Just because I can't see you doesn't mean you should lie to me." I say sternly. "I am really." He whispered. Something tells me he's not at all. "What is it?" I asked. "I just want to hear your voice. Can you just talk to me?" He asked. "I have nothing to talk to you about. If that's what you want then sure. How are you besides the fact that you probably overworked yourself again. What did you do?" I asked him. He was silent for a moment. He took a deep breath before starting to talk.

"I said talk to me not scold me." He said. I crack a small smile. "Where are you?" I asked. "I'm here." He said. "Here where?" I asked. "The hotel were staying at for the night." He said. "So you got released?" I asked. "Yes." He lied. I could tell. "You snuck out?!" I asked. "No. I just volunteerily left." He answered bluntly. "So you had me worried sick with that weird phone call and all to have you leave without being cleared?!" I yelled. "Well I wouldn't be in this position if it wasn't for you." He said.

I froze. Is he? Is he really blaming me? "What did I do? I'm all the way across the nation. Or ocean in your case." I say. "I wouldn't be if you would've said the words." He said. "I won't be the reason of you not following your dreams. I'll let you do whatever you want to do. I just want you to be happy. Even if it meant risking my own happiness." I tell him looking at myself in the glass mirror. "Then why'd you do it? I would put you before anything else if you would let me! Then you accuse me of not doing so!" He said.

"Okay slow down! I only said that because I was not in a mental state of actually talking to anyone! And you let me go! I let you go so you can do the very thing that you love! So you can be happy! Why is that so hard to believe?!" I asked. "It's not that I don't believe it. It's just that it's kinda selfish of you. Don't I get a say?!" He asked. "I have said enough! And I won't be talking about this anymore! I'll see you when you return." I say closing my eyes tightly.

"First. I need to tell you something." He said. My stomach turned. I took a deep breath and looked around me. "Go ahead." I say afraid of what he might say. "You'll probably see it in the morning but...I want to say I'm sorry." He said nervously. "Your single. I don't mind. Have fun. I have a few of my own." I answered biting my bottom lip. "What do you mean by that?" He asked. "Nothing. Just get some rest and enjoy the tour." I say. Then and there I knew.

I could hear the pattern of his breathing change as he spoke in a low erratic tone. "So that's just it?" He asked. "I have nothing else to say. I have said everything I wanted to say.What do you want from me!?" I say a bit aggervated. "I want you to be fucking honest with me and yourself!" He spit. "I am! I told you I don't want to talk about it anymore!" I snapped back. "Why not? There is still a lot unsaid! Say while you still can!" He snapped back. I held my head. This isn't happening. "You have caused me enough worry. I'm done." I spit.

"I have? What about you?! Your the one who can't be honest with me! You push me in another direction when you truly want to pull me in another." He said growing a little angry. He wasn't the only one though. "What the hell do you want from me?! You nearly gave me a heart attack being worried about you! I receive a call to clarify that your fine but your not! Get yourself back to that hospital and get checked out because you are insane! I can't keep doing this!"

"Doing what?! Say it!" He shouted. "I can't keep fighting a battle I don't stand a chance against! You clearly don't need me since you have your others! Enjoy them all! Get it all out of your system! There is no point to this conversation whatsoever." I chuckled to hide the fact that I actually wanted to cry at the moment. I didn't want to deal with any of this! I have no reason to! I don't care! I want to be left alone! I don't want to keep fighting for something I no longer am entitled to! Why doesn't he get that?!

What's done is done! I won't take anymore of this abuse! Just when I felt fine and was ready to get back into the world,I'm sucked right back in. No matter how hard I fucking try. "I just want you to be happy! What is it that you want?!" He asked. "I want to drop this and hang up so I can move on with my life." I say. "And act like I never even existed in it huh?" He asked. I shook my head. "I didn't mean it like that." I coughed now it was getting harder to breathe.

"No its okay. My needs always comes before yours in your mind. But we're going to change that." He sighed. "I swear you need to go get checked out. Your talking gibberish." I say. "I don't care! I'm gonna get it out of you one way or another. It might not be today but I will. Take my word for it." He stopped. "So can I go now?" I asked impatiently. "One month." He said. What? "What are you on about?" I asked. "One month Laura. It's you and me. Tell me it all then. If not, then its officially goodbye." *Beep beep*
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