Taking Back The Throne

9 - change my mind

One night, I decided to tell Blake what was happening inside of my fucking head for the past few weeks.

I'm going back to be a nerd again.

I like being a nerd, not being invited to parties and just studying and having straight A's. Except for the bullying part though...

Anyway, I told Blake all about it and now... We aren't much in a talking period. He avoided me at all times, he never picked me up like he used to.

That's why I decided to break things of with him. I went to school, not greeting my used-to-friends, and then going straight to my locker. I felt someone tap my shoulder, and when I looked around I saw it was Blake. "What do you want?" I asked. He just stared at me with sad eyes. "You.. You really wanna break up with me?" He asked. I looked at my watch. I was a bit early, I still had two hours before school starts.

"I...I, uh, no.. Not really, but," I stammered. "Please, Allie.. I love you so much I can't imagine my life without you." Ow, man, that broke my heart. I just stared at him. "I want to break up with you." I said. "But you said you didn't want to a while ago!" He argued. I shrugged.

"I guess I changed my mind..." I said, slipping past him and then heading for the library.

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Later on, I saw him again, leaning against his car. He looked up and saw me, and I pretended not to. I walked fast to go to the bus stop, but he called my name. "Allie." I ignored him and just kept on walking. "Allie!" He yelled. I turned around. "What do you want?!" I yelled. "Allie, I need to talk to you."

"There is nothing to talk about, plus, I am a nerd now, I can see my life without you." I said. I didn't lie back there. He just stared at me with sad and sparkly eyes. "Please." I sighed and just walked to his car again. I looked down and he took my hand and squeezed it. I looked up at him. When I entered the car, he jumped in and closed the car door. I looked at my hands, and then playing with them. I felt fingers softly touch my face and then making my head turn, he kissed me.

My eyes widened. Whilst he kissed me, I felt wetness run down my cheeks. I looked at his closed eyes. Tears were falling down his closed eyes. I pulled away and wiped his tears away, and him, crying. "I don't want to break up with you, Allie, I really don't want to. I don't want to waste my life thinking about how I'm going to spend my life without you, now that we're going to graduate and then going to the same colleges.

I know we're going to the same college, but I'm not going to date any other girls, because then you'll always be on my mind. I don't care if you're a nerd now, I want you and only you. I don't care if they say anything about us, because I'll never listen to them. Please, just don't..." He said, looking down and sobbing quietly.

I hate to see him like this. But what's decided is decided. "I'm sorry, Blake."

And then I walked away.

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hii. so sorry for not updating. here. a heartbreaking chapter. haha. i went back to tbilwan and looked at all of your comments and i gratefully replied. here's a chapter for all of you who whined for this. you can thank me later.