The Troublemakers

Returning Home

*Katie's POV*

"Louis!" I yell and all but literally throw myself into his arms.

"Hey baby." he says and kisses my forehead.

"I missed you!"

"I missed you too. I wasn't even sure if I'd make it through the tour."

"What d'you-?"

"I thought I was going to be missing my family far too much to be able to make it through alive."

"You're overly dramatic."

"Maybe a little bit."

"No, I'm thinking alot."

"Whatever makes you happy."

*Louis' POV*

"Daddy, will you go on tour again?" Jordan asks me as I'm putting him to bed.

"I will." I tell him.

"Why?"

"Because it's part of my job."

"Oh."

My son looks up into my blue eyes with his blue ones and my heart just breaks.

I don't want him to grow up hardly knowing me. Or saying "Yeah, he's my father, but that's all he is." I want him to be proud that I'm his dad.

My biggest fear is probably him becoming rebellious just so I'll be able to pay attention to him.

I hate the thought of potentially missing my children grow up.

"Goodnight buddy." I tell him.

"Night daddy." he says.

For most of the night I can barely sleep. When I do, it's not a very peaceful sleep.

"Jordan, din- what's that?" I ask my son.

"It's nothing dad." he says picking up what I was pointing at.

"Right."

He sighs. "It's a joint."

I knew it. "Jordan, where did we go wrong? Where did your mum and I go wrong?"

"Mum never went wrong anywhere."

"What did I do?"

"Never being there for me, or any of us! There were so many times that I needed my dad and you weren't there! You've hardly ever been here on my birthday. I gave up on hoping you'd be here for my birthday when I was six. When was the last time you were here for it? My second birthday?"

He's right.

"My third birthday I get. You didn't want to miss Mariah being born. But all the rest, why? Why can you never be here for us, your family. Do you not want us? Are you ashamed of us? Is that what it is? Do you not care about your children or your wife? If that's the case, why are you still here? When Mariah gets married, I wouldn't be surprised if she doesn't want you to walk her down the aisle."

That really hurt.

"You used to be my hero dad! There was no one else I looked up to more that you. But you haven't been that person for a long time. When I was four I probably would've punched someone for saying something about you that I didn't like. But now, I'd just agree with them. When someone asks me if you're my father I tell them that you are and that's all you are to me. I mean, you're practically not in my life! I never had anyone to kick a football with. I'm not being mean to mum, but she's hopeless when it comes to football. And do not get me started on your daughter-"