Why can't he see? (SebastianxGrell)

Chapter 1

So I want to make this quick and say this is my first BoyxBoy fanfic so I hope it turns out. I wanted to do this for a while and I realize there are barely any SebastianxGrell stories on Wattpad at all. I hope you like it

By the way, this will start out rather depressing, but it won't stay like that.

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-Three years after Kursoshitsuji end, London, England-

Grell's POV

"Grell will you you just get out of here?!" Will snapped at me. I bit my lip softly, but drew a little blood. Its like he never cares. All he ever does is yell at me.

All I did I was nod and walk out of his office. I then proceeded to go into the human world. I don't know where I'm going, and I don't really care. I just need time to think things over.

Oh um, let me introduce myself. I'm the grim reaper in red Grell Sutcliff. Ring a bell? I don't even know anymore. Let me ask you something? Am I supposed to feel this way? Like the world around me is falling apart? I can't even make any cocky jokes anymore. Its like all I can do is feel alone.

But I guess I have a reason.

Images started to flash through my mind of everyone I know.

Will hates me. I get that now.

I think all the Phantomhive manor does. At least everyone who knows the real me.

Ronald never talks to me anymore.

Neither does Undertaker.

I put my head down, looking at the ground as I tried to stay to the shadows as best as I could. But I can say there was one place I wanted to go right now.

As weird as this sounds, I feel alone, but I want to be alone. I don't think any pain can be caused to me while I'm by myself, can it?

I never thought I was able to feel alone in a room of people I once loved until I found the true game. They never loved me. They never cared. It was all in my head. The only time anyone cared was when I got myself into trouble or the matter concerned them. Otherwise I'm no one.

No one ever knew me, no one even knows me.

I'll tell you something. I might look happy on the outside, but I'm not. Not in the least.

All I can ask for is for one person to care. That's it. But no one will. Everyone either hates me or tries to not even acknowledge my simple existence. I'm tired of people. Demons, other reapers, humans, I'm done with them all.

Making my way through the crowds, I found the woods I came to know and love. Making my way through the thick trees until I came to a clearing. There was a river running through, the water sparkling in the sun light peeking through the tree tops. I inhaled deeply with the peaceful sounds.

I sat by the edge of the water, basking in the peace of mind. I liked the feeling. But it seemed my mind wanted more.

I didn't know what to give it. I can't give it anything I don't have. No love, just lust. It seems that's all I have.

At some point I dozed off in the blissful silence with my back against a tree. But it was only filled with nightmares.

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I was running. No where to go. No where to hide.

My breathing hitched and I needed to stop for a breath, but I couldn't. They would get me if I did. Everyone was behind me. Everyone I once loved chased me, shouting hateful words to break whats left of my empty heart. I couldn't take it.

I almost couldn't take it anymore.

I kept running until I felt myself falling forward. I landed on the hard ground and felt something wet drip down my face as my forehead bashed against the concrete.

I rolled over to look and see who was there.

Sebastian. Hes always hated me, I don't think I can do anything about that.

Will. Same with him. All I did was annoy him.

Undertaker.

Ronald.

And seas of other people I couldn't see. They never became clear as Sebastian pinned me down. I struggled but when I looked into his eyes, I could only see pure white.

Same with everyone else.

I couldn't get away from them. I just closed my eyes, waiting for impact that never came.

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I shot up only to find myself laying in the grass on the forest floor. I brought my knees up to my chest feeling something wet falling down my face.

I couldn't stop crying so I just sat there with my head in my hands.

Looking up, I saw the stars standing out against the dark sky and knew I should head home. Slowly I got up and started to make my way out of the forest. Seconds later I was back in my apartment. Alone again.

I sat on the edge of my bed, deciding on a shower.

Something you might not know, the Shinigami world differs from the rest of the world in our technology that London doesn't have.

Stripping off my long red coat, I hung it up in my closet and started for my bathroom. I got in there and stripped myself of my clothes. Staring at myself in the mirror, I stared at all my imperfections. Sighing, I removed a leaf from my hair and slipped off my glasses.

I turned on the water and stepped inside the shower, letting the hot water fall down my back, tinting my skin pink.

I fished the shampoo and conditioner through my long hair, scrubbing until it was clean and soft.

Shaking slightly once I was finished, I wrapped and red towel around me and put on my glasses. I walked into my room and pulled out a long red night shirt and undergarments, getting dried off and dressed quickly.

I brushed my hair and dried it, staring at myself with disgust into the mirror.

I went back to my bed and laid down, pulling up the closest book I could find to read. But I couldn't focus. After about 15 minuets, I just sighed and put it down, turned out the light, and got under the covers and trying to fall asleep.

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Short first chapter but whatever. This is the first time I write a love story so cut me some slack. Its also BoyxBoy for anime characters >_<

Song for today: Escape the Fate- Gorgeous Nightmare (Nightcore)