Innocent Creatures

Chapter 16 (P.O.V: Fia)

I have not been given a chance so see our new living quarters.

"Let's go and show you your living spaces!" Yolanda smiles sweetly, clapping her hands in excitement and tugging Ariana along with her. I begin to follow, but a hand cups around my arm.

Then I hear a cold voice from behind me say "Me and Felicity will not be joining you".

Sebastian.

"Okay Sir!" Yolanda laughs, but I see Red, Clive and River all give worried looks in my direction. I was tugged away, for I could do nothing. Sebastian held my hand awfully softly for the cold-blooded killer I knew he was, scaring me, and he lead me out of the tent, out into the beautiful night. I shiver, because the breeze dancing through the air felt like hundreds of tiny pins were pricking me. Sebastian offers me his cloak, which I take because of the temperature, not because I want to. I pull it on, and he gently tugs me into the forest ahead, which has very tall, bear trees covering most of the floor.

When I look up, thousands, if not millions of stars greet me with their warm, white glow. The aura they give off is simply fantastic, but I can not stop to look, as I am still being pulled. "Why are you silent?" I ask him, terrified of what his answer could be.

"Because there is nothing to say yet" He stops, momentarily, then we continue. That answer was not one that I would have picked for Sebastian, for I have seen him answer that question many times. He normally answers with a line along the lines of "So your death can be silent and peaceful".

Is he going to kill me? Oh  gosh, please say he isn't. It is utterly possible... Maybe he has taken me into the woods so that no one will see him killing me? Oh I do miss Papa... What would he say to this? I wonder...

"Here we are!" Sebastian says, letting go of my hand and looking around him. We stand in an open ring of land, with nothing but a single wooden bench in it's clearing.

He's going to kill me, I know it.

"What do you think of me?" He asks, sitting on the bench in front of me.

"I beg your pardon?" I am terribly confused.

"It's a simple question Fia, what do you think of me?"

"I think you are... a respectable man with a lot of courage to do what..."

"Lies already I see. Answer truthfully!" I am startled, and my eyes dart around before I answer.

"You are a cold killer of whom I am utterly terrified of, who is a disgusting man due to your murdering streak, and I think you might kill me right now!" I spurt out, then I clasp my hands over my mouth realising what I have done, and start to cry, falling to the grass below me.

"Fia... Oh Fia" I hear him whisper, and I feel his hand place on top of my hunched back. "I knew you would say something like that, but I will never kill you. Dear, look at me". I do as I am told, and he gently brushes my tears away.

"Do want to know why I kill?" he asks.

I shake my head, murmuring "No".

Still, he lifts up his left sleeve, revealing one ink mark at a time. Ten names lay, inked onto his dark skin.

Taya, Martha, Genevieve, Matilda, Elizabeth, Alexandrea, Dacha, Amelia, Lucy and Makaila. 

"These are the names of the lovers I have lost... Dear Taya... My first love was she. My father decided I could not have a Gypsy girl as my wife, so he... He... He slit her throat with a carving knife the day before our wedding"

I gasp "I'm so sorry..." I whisper.

"Martha, Matilda, Elizabeth and all the rest - except Lucy -  were killed by him"

"What happened to Lucy"

"She was giving birth to our son, but she and the child passed the next day" He sits back onto the bench, and looks longingly up to the stars.

"Oh my... "

"Indeed... Come and sit" I walk forwards and sit on the bench next to him.

"Where is your father now?"

"Let me just say that I ended his days like he ended theirs..."

"You killed your own father?"

"Yes, it had to be done"

"Did it?"

"Yes..." He looks over to me, and I feel him staring "You are very beautiful, do you know that?"

"Umm... Thank you"

"I love you Felicity Pearl... " He moves his hand onto mine, and smiles his devilish smile. I realize his intention, and flinch away slightly.

"I love you..." He repeats, taking my breath away by the fact that he is crying slightly.

Don't let him fool you...

 "Sebastian... I... "

"There is not really anyone like you, Fia"

"Seb... "

"Shhh, there is nothing to say" He lifts a finger to my mouth, a tear rolling from his eye. At the same time I want to wrap my hands around his neck and squeeze, I want to hug him.

How much he went through... Why am I still here? Why am I not running away?

He moves a hand to the side of my face, and pulls me in. "I can't!" I shriek.

"Yes you can"

"No, no, no! I can't!"

"I love you... " And for some other-worldly reason, I let him kiss me. It's intense,  fast, and I am not sure that I like it. Kissing him feels strange.

Probably because he almost killed Red...

After a few seconds, I pull away and burst into tears. "No, no, no!" I yell "NO!"

"Fia?" Sebastian's face looks confused.

"No!" I cry even louder, bawling my eyes out.

"Oh... Fia... " He walks over to me, and pulls me close.

Then he kisses me. This time I do not pull away, for I feel a burning desire to be kissed by someone. I kiss him hard, and he returns the affection, but I am not at all thinking of him. I am thinking of Red. Sebastian moves his mouth down to my neck, and kisses my collar bone. I didn't want this, I wanted Red. He moves his mouth up to mine and kisses my lips like he is hungry. The guilt I felt when me and Red were alone is gone, I am absolutely, utterly, compassionately,  completely in love with the pale skinned, golden eyed man. I pull Sebastian closer, and pull both of us onto the floor with a thud. I need to fill the empty space in my heart with passion, and I guess this is where it's coming from.

"Fia... " He breathlessly whispers, but I do not say anything because I know I will say Red if I open my mouth. This feels so wrong, but I need to fill the void.

Should I break away?... Yes I should! But I do not want to... I have to, he is a murderer.

"I can't..." I pull away, and jump up immediately.

What have I done?

I sprint away, down the dirt path we had used to walk through the forest. "Fia!" I hear Sebastian shout, but I do not hear his footsteps behind me. I run faster, tears falling from my eyes.

I kissed a criminal! Oh gosh, what on earth have I done? He wanted to... He wanted to... Oh my gosh, he was going to... I hate him so much!

Anger bubbled up in my veins like poison, gosh I could not detest that man any more than I already do. The hate I feel right now is so powerful that I could hit him until he cried.

I need to tell Red.