Dating can be stressful. Try dating a man that's dealing with childhood trauma, personality disorder, and running a cartel. Christina Sanders, is in for a whirlwind with the oldest brother out of the Santiago clan. She's made an impact on Xavier, an...
"I gotta get my baby! Girl don't leave me! All this crazy shit that you're dealing wit, you probably hate me." Discover - Chris Brown
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Devil Three months ago, I walked away from the best thing that ever happened to me. Not knowing how all this would affect me. I had to leave her alone. Things were moving faster than I needed. I was falling faster than I wanted. The one promise I made, I was the first to break. I watched as that punk nigga did something stupid which caused her to laugh. I called her phone, and as expected her rude ass sent me to voicemail.
How many times do I have to say sorry Chris? I get it, I fucked up. I shouldn't have walked away but how can I fix it if you not willing to talk to me? Anyway, I'm coming to your spot tonight. That nigga you stay hee-haw ha-ing over better be long gone.
I waited for the read receipt to show up, but nothing came through. I guess she got smart and turned it off. I tapped the steering wheel trying to figure out my next couple of moves. Today was an off day for us. I had a couple of options, but I only wanted to be one place. I put my foot to the pedal and headed off in the direction of my first love.
Thirty minutes later
"Ma, Chris don't want me no more" I whined, laying my head in her lap.
She chuckled, and rubbed my head.
"Truthfully son, I wouldn't want your poor excuse of an ass either."
I glared at her and rolled my eyes. She popped me in my forehead, and I mugged her.
"Be serious Devil. You walked out on her, and she tried to reach you more than the normal woman would have attempted to. Yet, you ignored her, cursed her out, and you made her cry. So, put yourself in Christina shoes. How would you feel?"
I sucked my teeth because, I did do some foul shit to Chris during these last three months. Hearing it out loud made me seem like an insensitive asshole.
"Ma, I didn't mean any of that stuff. I was angry at myself. I bottled up those type of feelings I was having for Chris a long time ago. It was easier to run than feel." I explained.
"You can't push love away son. You'll be old, lonely, and miserable. Always mumbling about how you let the best thing slip through your fingers. I don't want that for you Devil. Quite frankly, you and Tay never had real love. She loved you, but you loved the power you held over her."
I shook my head with intentions to protest and my mama held her hand up.
"You can't tell me that deep down you were in love with Tay. You have a completely different persona when you talk about Chris. With Tay, you had an, it is what it is kind of attitude. Therefore, you can't base this relationship on that one....
She grabbed my face and held it.
Son, Chris cares a great deal about you. She's hurt, but can you actually blame her? You've done more damage in three months than you did when you two first met. You need to get your act together"
