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Chapter 3

I sat at home thinking about everything my mom told me. I was currently sitting on a swing set just gently moving forward and backward.
We used to call this our secret sharer only because when we had free time We would choose to come out to our back yard and just sit here and confide in each other or just sit for hours thinking.

She was dead now my heart flattened a little as I thought about her death I was trying to just avoid thinking about it and it really seemed to be helping me. I'm just glad she saw me graduate its something she would have wanted to see before her death.

I smile thinking about how well we got along and all the memories we made together and separately.
As I was thinking and reminiscing in a way I heard a noise that sounded very much like my glass door to the back door sliding open. I let out a slight squeak and jumped off the swing at the surprising and unwelcome noise interrupting me in my sanctuary of peace and quiet. I shoved away some tears that must've fallen while I was thinking about my mom. It was something I had gotten used and would take some time to fully get rid of, but for now I didn't want to not grieve or try to be happy I just wanted to think of her until our lives together has completely flashed before my eyes so that I can accept that there's no more coming and I can accept and move on from her death ,but still forever hold her and the life we had in my heart.
I turned around fully composed. I was greeted with the sight of Jennifer.

"Oh my God Jen,its been like forever!" I ran to hear sincerely ecstatic by her surprise visit.
I laughed as I said "You know as much as I wish you came just to cheer me up its been a week since my Mom's funeral and I've definitely kept you busy. Actually she's kept you busy with all her requests." Jennifer laughed  "Oh please,anything new with your mom it was like that day in and day out."

We laughed both having our different memories of my mom in her bossiest moments. We settled in a comfortable silence. When suddenly as if willing herself not to cry although I could already see tears forming in her eyes Jennifer changed the subject. 
"Oh um by the way I have news about all the requests that I was asked to fulfill. I've been working on it since I was only given two weeks and we have one week till you are set to leave on January 1 and you spend your last day here in NYC so I just want to give you a bit less than 4days to enjoy the perks of this great city before you're shipped off to the middle of nowhere." "Ugh don't even remind me thinking about that is almost as enjoyable as watching paint dry."
She laughed and sarcastically said "ooh I didn't know it was thaat away much fun." I laughed. "Hey!" I said snapping my fingers remembering her reason for being here.
"We are definitely the most absent minded losers I know,but we do have three days to do everything my mom planned if we plan on letting me enjoy this beautiful city. "Yes I'll  summarize for you. We will unveil our own charity called..... wait for it ....STONE SURVIVAL SYSTEM!!!!" I nodded acknowledging my appreciation for the name. She continued,  "You have 3 interviews on Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday. Then you have to go and see the pictures from your Louis Voutton shoot from a week ago. Also you need to make an appearance at Kylie Jenners' big bash for her 18th. And lastly remember a couple months ago you were invited to push the button for the ball drop on New years. And then you can chill. I was kidding as you can tell I really don't think you'll get any free time sorry babe."
I smiled. "The more the merrier."

The days passed down so quickly I could barely keep up. I was from one place too the next I didn't have time to breathe nevertheless think.

Finally New years eve had arrived ready to take us all into the New year to create new memories and new beginnings. My publicity had been like a sparkler firing out of control while still gorgeous and quickly passing by and sizzling out.

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The screams erupted from people all around, the cheers were deafening. I joined the festivities and hoped no begged that the New year would bring great happiness and strength to me. I then kissed my hand and blew a kiss to my mother whether she was up in the sky or just laying in the ground decomposing. No matter, wherever it is my kiss is a sign of gratitude for everything she's ever done.

I climbed into bed and promised myself that my grief wouldn't include tears anymore.

I closed my eyes, sighing. This is the first day of everything new. I know at the end of this year I will still be standing. Nothing can break me down and nothing will. There is no pain compared to losing someone you love.

This year will throw curve balls but no matter what I will look all my trials in the and hit a home run for every single ball. All because I am strong,I am beautiful,I am a woman and in my imperfections there is perfection.

I will cry,I will get hurt,and I might fall and feel like I don't have the strength to get back up ,but I will get up and I will walk out of the fire and the pain with scars and burns and the only thing I will appreciate is if I learnt something.

I doze off anxious and scared for tomorrow I will wake up,fly to some unknown land and meet the other half of my family....

And meet my FATHER...M