Positive Insight (TagLish)

chapter 8

  6:29 PM 3/8/2015

Three years existence looking forward forever!!!
so this was it i took my yearly annual test last
July 24, 2015 a bit scared cause i know for myself
that im okay but since February 2015 i decided to
live my life with my own perspective without the
supervision of my parents.

from then on i used to focus on my work and hang out
with my office mates and my so called friends haha..
i also joined a contest to boost up my confidence
since before in my high school days i am a title holder
of some pageants in my Alma mater.

having this kind of illness change my whole life
from being a head turner to a shy one.
i did all my best to get what i am before.
i took my maintenance medicines for over a three years now
and im dying to have that drop dead GORGEOUS body
before and now im very glad to see the world again.

going back to the pageant i joined this time im not
wearing that black shiny shoes this time i tried
wearing a 10 inches high stilettos. the contest aims to
search for the body beautiful heavy weights which i am
was not that so heavy just want to have fun and show my
self that im free happy loud proud healthy young and fresh
not telling them that im living with this illness.

i did not win the pageant but i still gained confidence
and self esteem to myself. Actually the moment always
expected to happen in swimsuit ramp happened to me
i slipped down to the edge of the stage by the ten inches
high stilettos its very slippery because im wearing
stockings and also my feet perspires too that moment
so it triggers me slipped and then i make that
"miriam quiambao moment" in that pageant.

going back to my life living separately to my parents
i tried to lived with my so called friends every day is like
a holiday and every week we can never missed out a single
chit chats on bottle of liquors it happens to be party
all night long until we found our selves drunk.

and then until i took this annual review of my health this
July 24th 2015 knowing that i lived my life not so good
healthy lifestyle i still got progress in my cd4 count
back to my first cd4 its only 8 to 16 to 325 and now the
result was 442 cd4 counts. the PPD test which also known
as skin test where i thought the good result of this test is
to become negative so that i won't be claimed positive to
pneumonia tuberculosis i always got negative before but now
i asked the head nurse why does my ppd result become
positive measures 20 millimeter he said that its positive which
means my immune system is active fighting to all the common
viruses a person i may encounter in everyday life.

Looking forward to know the result of my x-ray and
viral load on the next time i will visit my hub the last
result of my viral load back July 2014 findings 200 active
virus and said to be undetectable now im wondering how
many viruses left for me to consider and plan if i can
have a baby if possible not to harm when i engage myself to
have a child that's all for now.