Ipseity

The Beginning ~ Gemini

To outsiders, we were the same. Exactly alike in every way possible. And if I were honest, it sickened me. Acting like one another, becoming a shadow to a reflection, it churned my stomach every time it appeared in my mind. I always wanted to be renowned for what I did, not what we both did. 

So, I got what I wanted, it was a mistake.

Because of my wish, she was gone. 

How could I have wished for that?

Because you're a horrible, selfish brother who was never satisfied with what he had.

Am I really that bad of a brother?

Yes, you are.

No I'm not that heartless.

You know you really are.

Maybe it's all a dream.

This is reality, accept it already.

Maybe I've finally gone crazy.

You've always been crazy.

Why did this happen?

Because you're a fool.

This mental argument continued in my hand for what seemed like an eternity. The gears in my head turning at record speed. My hands clenched the metal next to me, ocean blue eyes dilating at the bright light looming above me. She was there, standing right next to me. Her blond curls falling over her shoulders, her smile as bright as a million stars. Then, like that, she was gone. Stashed away in a glass mirror where she could only watch from afar. The other half of me, the other Gemini. 

A sharp intake of air, there's no time to worry about stupid things like this. Besides she'll be there tomorrow anyway. At least that's what I thought, last year only a sliver of her was there. A chair left unoccupied, a person missing. I was clinging onto false hope, praying it was real.

The grip I had on the metal piece slowly lessened. My attention sliding over to the mirror hanging on the wall, a thudding sound coming from it. At any other time I would be curious to see what it was, but this time I already knew. 

Without any warning, a hand lunged out from it. Cracks littered all across it. Far too many to count, but all coming together to make a broken replica of her arm. The arm struggled, trying to grasp at anything it could feel, but to no avail. I made sure of it. Tortured screams rippled throughout the air as the hand slowly descended back into the mirror.

Watching the hand disappear, I quietly let out the breath I didn't know I was holding. As soon as it fully disappeared a tense silence overcame the room. She nearly got out, nearly. I knew why my heart was beating so fast. Why every time I heard that horrific screech there would be a painful lurch in my chest. 

I was afraid. Afraid of what she would do once she got out. Would she forgive me for being so foolish? Yell at me until her voice gave out? Or even hurt m- No she would never do that. Not only was I foolish, but I was turning dumb. How could I ever face her in this state? 

My eyes fluttered shut for a moment, maybe, just maybe, if I closed my eyes I could go back. Back to the days when everything was peaceful. Back to the days spent without a care. 

Then, a face appeared in my mind, Aries. Since the day she was trapped in limbo, he cherished her with all his heart. The only one out of the twelve of us who truly cared for her with his entire being. Even when she wasn't there, he would always save a seat for her. Visit the grave we made for her every single day, announcing that she wasn't dead. He truly loved her. How could I compare? I was the brother who sacrificed her for my Godly position. How pitiful.

As I was drifting off to sleep, my eyes quickly flung open, a horrified screech erupting from my throat as I saw my specially carved bamboo door struggling to stay in the door frame. The wooden figure filling with cracks at a rapid pace then falling dramatically to the floor as the culprit proudly stood over it. Heart filled with grief, I surged forward to hold my fallen companion. An aching pain spreading across my body as tears streamed down my face and onto the wooden surface.

"The mighty Leo is here! Coming to save the wimp from certain death involving not being around my awesome presence," he stopped immediately as he saw what I was doing, "Gemini what even."

I only continued to rock back and forth holding her, she didn't deserve this, no one did. 

"Are you done yet?"

My poor, sweet Lucille, just yesterday I created the doorknob. I planned on attaching it to you, all I wanted was to open you, to see what wonders you could have shown me.

"Capricorn and Virgo want us to assemble at the gathering room in about five minutes"

 Instantly I shot up, panic visible on my face.

"They're going to kill us if we're late"

Now this bastard was smirking, tapping his foot as he looked at the nonexistent watch on his wrist. He was enjoying this even though he knew the punishment for being late.

"Four minutes now"

With an unmanly shriek, I propelled myself out of the doorway. Leo following close behind, we both began to bust out running to gathering room.

~*~

A girl with golden locks smiled in amusement while watching her brother leave with the rambunctious lion. Her delicate fingers tracing the window to the outside world. She longed to go outside, if only once. To hug her brother, banter with her friends, share a kiss with her lover. All these desires stopped by a thin wall of glass. A sigh escaped from her lips as she hugged her knees closer to her body. Strangely enough, the walls began to thin by the day. She knew for a fact that the annual revival was coming up, but this was different. The walls had never done this before, in fact she nearly escaped earlier.

Gemini had a definite feeling, things were going to change.

 ~*~

Rest in pieces Lucille.