We were already in 6th grade and still in the same class. We will go to middle school next year. I don't know if we will go to the same school or not. But I had the feeling that we will.
Our relationship at that time was not that bad. We talked normally, we laughed and we teased each other. At that time I thought, 'I want this to continue forever'. Like all of you thought, our classmates teased us and he start to ignored me. But, he doesn't ignored me that long. After a few days we will start to talk to each other. Maybe it's because our seat were near each other. But, I realised something. The feeling that I once lied were becoming real. I started to like him. But, I knew that he like someone else. But what can I do? He likes her. I like him. I can't do anything. I constantly lied to myself. Saying things like I never have feeling for him. I like him as a friend. When my friends teased us saying that I have feeling for him, I'll say 'I don't like him. We were just friend. I never have any special feeling towards him'. What a liar. I said to myself. I don't want to lie. I want to say that I like him. But you know, if I said that I like him, he'll ignore me. It's hurt me more if he ignore me. So, instead being hurt by being ignored by him, why not being hurt by lying to stay as friend? What an idiot. If I can tell something to my past self, I'll tell that she's an idiot. But, the me now is the same. The me now doesn't have any position to tell the past me that she's an idiot.
As the same things kept happening, before I realised we're already going to middle school.
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My First Love Story
Teen FictionIt's about Akiyama Eri first love and her life. When she discovered her first love and what happen to it. What about her friendship? She will tell it to you. Will it going to be bittersweet? Or happy? Or sad? What's going to happen? Who knows.
