My First Love Story

Last Year of Middle School - Part 2

You know, in the beginning of the new term of school. I felt sick. It was on the thirteenth days when the school started. I was hoping for him to come and gave me the handouts or homeworks. You know. A girl can dream, right? But, I was expected something that was so difficult to happen. Something that was to impossible for me to experience. At that time, I thought that things happen in manga was all a lie. Of course it is. Is it? It think some people might truly experience it. Because they weren't me. The boys/girls they like weren't the same as mine. Even if he doesn't stop at my house to do that, I was hoping at least he will text me and said 'Are you okay?' ' Why are you absent today?' Even the simplest thing like that will make me happy. I'm such an idiot to like someone like him. In my friends point of view, he doesn't deserve me. I deserve someone better. But still, I like him. I just hoping for him to understand me even a little.
The next week, after I recovered from my fever. I went to school. He acts like the same. Doesn't ask why am I absent like my other friends. Don't worry. I can take it. I won't cry. I won't give up until you acknowledge me. All of that was a lie. A lie that I told to myself.
On Wednesday, we had science. All of us went to the science lab. The teacher gave us works. While we doing it, I talked to my friends, Iori and Anri. Shusuke's and his group sat at the table in front of us. Shusuke teased Anri. 'Oi, Matsui (Anri last name) stop looking at me'. 'What are you talking about? I don't even want to look at your face'. Anri said that. They were just kidding around. We knew each other's except for Iori since elementary school. 'Who want to look at your face. I would rather look at Matsukawa than you Takashi'. I said jokingly to Shusuke. 'Yeah, Akiyama. I don't talk to you. I talk to Matsui'. Takashi' said. 'Wait. Did you said that you rather look at Wataru?' He said that with an evil grin. I realised that I made a wrong choice to joke about that and not just that. Wataru sat in front of Shusuke. 'Oi Wataru. How about you just accept Akiyama feeling? It been already 4-5 years since she like you'. Shusuke said that with a stupid smile on his face. 'Why would I? I already have someone that I like. She live near my grandmother. I always see her on summer and winter break and we already together for 5-6 years'. Wataru said that and with a smile on his face. You know. I'm not surprised. He already told me that. I don't know if it was just a mere lie or not. 'Akiyama. You hear that? Just wait for a year'. Shusuke said. 'Ericchi, you have a strong heart eh. Wait for him that long. I don't think I can do that'. Iori said that to me. 'I wonder'. I replied. We stopped chatting and finished our work.

I'll update after I have an idea or when I have some free time! Exam, exam, exam. Big exam for me this year. I need to study. Wish me luck! It will be a few months before my big exam. Still, I have to study. ~_~