Generalisation Of A Life

July 2013

5 July 2013

Sick. Keep coughing. Get very dizzy. I don't think people realise how bad having vertigo can actually be. Its an unwanted dizziness that keeps on occurring. It affects your balance, ability to walk and the way you feel. I have had vertigo since the age of six and am now able to bare it. Its challenging at times because it can get very intense at involuntary, random moments. It often happens at school but I don't tell anyone, I just sit it out. If I told anyone, they wouldn't really care, like how no one really truly cares when someone describes how sick they are and how long they have been sick for. I think people pretend to care a lot. Some people are obvious; you can tell they really don't care because they don't properly listen. Many people are self centred and always talk about themselves and never allow you to say much, and when they do, they do not show the slightest interest. Other people are epic and are easy to talk to as they allow you to talk and vice versa. I honestly, no matter what, I feel guilty when I talk about myself. In my head im like "Man, just let them speak." "Whoa, I think I just cut them off." "They probably aren't even listening, nor do they probably care." Im more of a listener and have been that way my whole life, so im pretty much used to not having much to say. When it comes to explaining something, or telling a story, I struggle so much. I find writing it out so much easier. I can write in such depth, you could be basically be in my thoughts, but I don't write that much for you to know. Had a really good last week of term. It was super fun and exciting. I love my friends at school. I just don't feel like I am there kind of people. Like, I feel that I am too different for them. It clicked to me at the beginning of this week, on the 1st. I knew, deep down, I don't particularly fit in, I just try my best to interact. Theres this Austin guy at my school and he is best friends with my brother Alex and they get along very well. They get along uber well with my friend charlotte and everyone else (im not going to write them because they are difficult to spell). Im not jealous in any way, its just that it seems so easy for them to be hell close. Im a very lame, weird and awkward person. I have been told it and know it. Oh well.

7 July 2013

I somehow always end up thinking about the most serious stuff when I go to the toilet. I guess its the only time you don't really want to focus on what your actually doing. I think about the human body and its functions. I find it amazingly beautiful. The fact that our body is self functioning up to the smallest details. Its brutally incredible. I have really become obsessed with reading; it is now my favourite thing to do. Im so glad my friends recommended me this sight now. Its amazing. Like dude, you are able to read others stories and write your own. What perfection.

8 July 2012

HAHA got you there, its 2013. A thought occurred to me, in many stories I have read, the characters are always the 'ordinary' people. They always have courageous, crazy, thrilling and adventurous stories, so in reality...they are not ordinary at all. I think that everyone on Earth, whether famous, homeless, or anything, we are all just ordinary people. I think its the money that changes us, money gives something worth, so if you have a lot of it, you are able to have a higher opportunity of success in becoming popular. I don't even know if this all makes sense, or if my point drives across my idea: What we have seems to make us how we are, on the outside. On the inside we are all the same.

17 July 2013

Holidays. The excitement and thrill of holidays just before they start. Its like knowing the weekend is about to begin, but an extra long one. It is already half way through the year. It has been pretty epic and full of such and such. This week I have completed homework and friends stayed over: Charlotte, Megen and Austin. That was pretty okay I guess. I like to keep to myself, I wasn't exactly entertaining in any sort of way. They probably thought I was hell boring, but I don't mind. They get along with each other better anyway. I think of myself as the odd one out. They all click so easily. I find myself just wanting to leave and do something on my own, its better that way. I like it better. Went to Perth and stayed at Hannahs, my bestest friend I guess you could say. My brother, Alex came along because he had to. Blasted music all the way to Perth with my dad driving all the way. It was actually pretty fun. Created a sign for the people who drove by to see; there wasn't much response that day to my sign saying "HEY!". The next day though, with my sign saying "Smile Dude :)"got peoples attention. Some smiled, it was pretty awesome. I hope it made their day. On the Saturday, the next day, we drove up to Kambalda (near Kalgoorlie) to see family. Am here currently. Held my baby Nephew. He is adorable. His name is Sawyer. Its good to see family. It makes you feel as if everything is okay. In the end family and friends is all you ever really care truly about. They are the important ones in your life. Having fun and making a documentary with Hannah, called the 'Stalker Diaries'. YES. Cheers.