Generalisation Of A Life

November 2013

I guess I should write something for November. Its the 30th of November and today I am going to watch Catching Fire with my family. I was planning to go on my first ever date but they can not go. I was a little sad at first because I had fantasized a little about it and the thoughts were shattered at the mere telling me they couldn't go. I don't mind really. I can save my first ever date for later on. I am so excited for this film though. I re-read the novel and my anticipation is high. I am going to pretend as if I haven't read the book and expect nothing because I don't want my hopes to be blown up.

I am recapping the birthday party that I went to. My friend named Charlotte. It was a pony party. I was sad that no one really put in the effort to dress up, but I loved their company likewise. I got there on time, but still had to help set of for about what felt like an hour. It was of little fun, but entertaining in a minor way. Everyone was wearing casual clothing except me and the other Charlotte. I was Twilight and she was Fluttershy. I stole crisps every now and then whilst setting up. Everything seemingly tastes delicious when you are hungry; so those crisps done it for me. In Australia we call them chips, but I think crisps sounds cooler. We played many little activities, which were very childish and entertaining. I got the crappy little gifts in the pass the parcel. I swear that was my fate; to get the silly, poo gifts. We ransacked the fridge and drank all that was offered. Well mostly. My favourite part during the day was the water slide. The sand scraped upon my legs but it was a pleasurable feeling sliding for five metres. I stressed over not messing up my makeup because it took so flippin long to do and I don't really like doing makeup. I didn't want it to smudge. It didn't! I was so happy about that. After the waterslide me and charlotte went over to Tahlias house, next door, and got the food cooking. Their house was lovely and so comforting. The lounge room had a weird smell but other then that it was homey. Their joey was so cute, but I think scared charlotte a little when moving suddenly, without warning. Mollys sister was with her boyfriend; they were all cuddly and all love gooey, which I had come to accept when I realised they are actually cool and I liked them. That night though. After playing clap and seek, dancing crazily and hyperactively, talking and talking and laughing and judging each others music secretly and peeing and doing some silly things together, and set up the tents in hope for comfort but knowing we will be crammed together on a thin layer on the cement. We ran around the streets. This moment, playing my music, snapchatting a friend, telling me some really nice things, running around crazily and screaming chaotically. I felt infinite at that moment. I felt like we were on top of the world. I felt at my purest best; on a positive high that I felt would never rush out of me. This was my favourite moment. Of the year in fact. We danced and sung along on the streets, playing little games, like having to get to something specific the fastest. We went to the park, swang on the see saw, saw little kids who were also walking around, went in front of the pub and danced for the people inside, who eventually noticed us and danced as well. We crossed over the train tracks when a train was coming (It was far away though), we went up to the school and saw the chickens and jumped and tapped a high branch. We were on a high that made us all so happy being together. The four of us. Molly stayed at her nice, little house, whilst we ransacked the town. This was better than schoolies. I didn't even care about not going to them anymore. I opened up to my friends that night, realising they are only human, like me and I loved being apart of their company, like they enjoy mine. We made each other laugh by doing stupid things and dancing silly ways. I loved that moment and will forever try and relive the memory.

We stayed up a bit late, energetic and fully pumped, talking and laughing, hoping that we wouldn't crush each other in our sleep. I breathed in charlottes face; the thing I dreaded to happen to me. Me and Mikki got really close, closer then I would have wanted a boy to be near me. I ended up liking my squished up to Mikki because it was more comfortable that way. I didn't even think about her being bi. That didn't bother me at all. Hagrid hagrid hagrid. Charlotte looks like hagrid when she wakes up ;)