MaiDen One Shots by poutylipschinita

i. MELANCHOLY

I was walking out from our classroom of four months to drink from the water fountain, I turned to my left and I saw your back. I thought you already left. I tried to look down, thinking that if you turn around, you won't see my face. I changed my mind and decided to stare at your back since it will be my first and last opportunity to do so. You were in your typical "get up", grey polo, jeans, and sling bag. You were holding your water bottle on your left hand and your car keys on your right, you were even whistling. I don't know what you're thinking that time. Were you happy that another semester has ended or something special is going to happen and you were excited? I dismissed my thoughts and just savour the view that is front of me. The beautiful colours of orange and yellow are showering us, a hint that the day is slowly ending. With those beautiful colours and your silhouette, its just a perfect picture. A perfect picture of saying good bye. Not only saying good bye to the great semester that we shared but also saying good bye to the feelings I never admitted.

I don't even know why I feel this sorrow just by watching you walk away, happy. While I'm having a hard time leaving this semester with the memories we shared. The times where you tried to be funny, the times where we found you annoying, the times you tried to compliment us with "lies". I don't know why I'm starting to miss you even if you're still in front of me. Maybe the picture of you leaving is a sign that everything will now change. Why do I feel like I'm in the losing end? Shouldn't I be happy that another semester ended? Shouldn't I be happy that I wouldn't have to read myriads of articles for our class? Shouldn't I be happy just like you? I don't know. I don't know why its hard.

You reached the stairs and continued with your whistling, I arrived at the water fountain and before I drank the water, I smiled and thought "Ikaw naman kasi Maine e, its your fault. Its wrong to have feelings for Prof Richard in the first place anyway."