MaiDen One Shots by poutylipschinita

iii. SELFISHNESS

Hey guys! Thank you for reading these shitty creations of mine. HAHAHA I really appreciate your time and effort to read this, in return I'll try to improve my writing but still hold in mind that I'm an amateur writer. Please forgive me if any grammatical errors are present. Here's my third one shot of MaiDen, enjoy!

Xoxo Chi~

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"JUST LEAVE, OKAY?!" Maine shouted. I really don't get where this is coming from. All I ever did in this relationship was to understand and accept every flaw she has. I was patient with every outburst she did. I was the one supporting her to every opportunity that comes in her career. I was her shoulder to cry on whenever she's depressed over something. I was her clown doing all sorts of stupid things just to make her happy. And now, I'm her punching bag, taking all of her blows just because she's mad about something.

"Maine.." I whispered. I'm trying to calm her down and understand the situation. I have one great advice that I follow whenever everything is heating up, be the better person. And that's what I'm trying to do.

"Can't you understand a thing, Alden? I.. I-I.. Just leave. For once, leave me alone!" She pushed me and closed the doors. I'm flabbergasted. Who am kidding? This isn't the first time she pushed me away and yet, every single time that she did, it breaks my heart.

I have no other left to do but to prepare comfort food for the both of us if she cools down. I look to my left and found our different pictures including our friends and family.

Many people in the industry looks up to our relationship. Everything we do, they consider it as #relationshipgoals but they don't know everything about us. They only see the happy side and times. They don't know what's happening closed doors. Only our family and friends know the real happenings.

Our friends would always asked me if nagsasawa na ako sa kanya. They said, I was the longest boyfriend she had, others were just tired of Maine's mood swings. She tends to push away the people she loves instead of seeking for guidance, comfort and support. They said that she's being unfair most of the time and I'm the one who's always patient with our relationship. Maybe there will be a time that I will get tired of all her drama. I don't know.

While I was cooking, I really had a heavy heart and I can't find the reason to continue it. I just realize, ako nalang ba parating ganito?  Ako lang ba parati ang considerate? Yung nagbibigay ng daan para makahinga yung isa? Kasi parang nararamdaman ko na rin yung parating sinasabi ng mga kaibigan namin eh, yung pagod? Napapagod din pala ang puso ng isang Alden Richards. Paulit-ulit nalang kasi, nakakasawa din pala. Eh bakit ang slow ko na-realize to? Ito kasing utak ko, nagpaparaya parati kay puso.

Due to frustration, I started to break the plates one by one while crying. I don't know, I have to let this frustration go and if ever it goes away, I just want to rest and think about myself. To finally think about myself.

A hand tried to stop me from breaking the next plate. I know that hand so well. You see, it has magic. Whenever I feel something that goes out of control just a touch from that hand, whatever I was feeling it goes away. I'm always at ease whenever she touches me. And that is so unfair. Every single time that I decide to give up our relationship just a touch from her, I forget all the tiredness I'm feeling.

"Sorry na.. Sorry na Alden. Tama na yan baka mapano ka." She said while slowly putting down the plate. She lead me to our living room, sat me down at one of the couches and she got the first aid kit in one of our drawers.

"Maine.. pagod na ata ako. Ngayon ko lang narealize na nakakapagod ka din palang mahalin. "  I whispered. She wasn't even crying and asking kung anong patutunguhan ng mga sinasabi ko but I still continue it.

"Maine have you ever noticed that I'm the only one who's working hard for this relationship? That I'm-" she cut me off and what she said really broke my heart into pieces.

"Sige na, wag ka ng magspeech at umalis ka na. Break na tayo kung gusto mo. Everybody always leaves me behind e. Congratulations, you made it to the list." She said with her deadpan eyes. This is what I'm talking about! She was just saying sorry and the next second, she can be really cold. I can't take it anymore. I walked towards the door and take one last look, she was just sitting there looking down. I opened the door and walked out. I stayed for a couple of seconds, leaning to the wall to compose myself when I heard a shout and I saw smoke coming out from the door. I didn't turned off the gas stove. Maine!

"Maine!" I shouted. I'm panting really hard like I just completed a triathlon, sweat is forming in my forehead, and I can hear the beating of my heart.

"Oh, anong nangyari sayo?" Maine asked me from the door, she was in her apron and was holding a spatula.

"Did I wake you up? Sorry, I shouted because I accidentally touch the lid of pot I was using. Brunch would be ready in a minute, just fix yourself na ha. " She continued and I just staring at her, wide-eyed.

"RJ, okay ka lang?" She asked while slowly approaching me. I pulled her into a tight hug. That was when everything was processing. White bed sheets, white painted closets, her vanity mirror, it was our bedroom. It was all a dream?

"Huuuuy, anong nangyayari sayo? May niluluto yung tao oh." She said while trying to get away from my hug. I kissed her forehead.

"Kahit anong mangyari, hinding hindi ako magsasawa sayo kahit nakaka-inis minsan yung mood swings mo, titiisin ko lahat. I love you so much Meng."

"Okay ka lang talaga? Uyy" she asked worriedly.

"Just a bad dream. I thought I lost you, there was a fire because of me and you were trapped inside the living room right after our break up, it was dreadful."

"Ano ka ba, I wouldn't do such a thing. I love you too much to break up with you. I'm too selfish to let you go, I want you all to myself." she said while smiling. There's my favorite smile again. I'm so relieved that it was all a dream. Ang drama naman masyado nun. I kissed her and I just want to hug her again when she said "Speaking of fire, mukhang nasusunog na yung niluluto ko! Ikaw kasi eh!" She hurriedly went to our kitchen.

I just smiled and followed her. Thank God I'm not the only one who's selfish, selfish enough to not let her go. Ever.