Undercover (JASON MCCAN LOVE STORY)

Chapter 12- Apology

 Mya P.O.V

For a few seconds I felt as if I was gonna pass out due to the intense atmosphere, but I regained myself, straightening my posture to walk out of the room. I pushed back past everyone to head downstairs walking a new direction of the house. I opened a door that led to the back yard which was huge. It had a pool AND a hot tub. I looked around in amazement, the backyard taking my mind off of the previous events that happened. I walked over to one of the wooden tan colored lounge chairs by the pool slouching down into it relaxing a bit closing my eyes, at least until I felt a presence beside me causing me to tense back up. I looked over to Jason who was sitting on the chair next to me but not relaxed, he had his head in his hands rubbing his face vigorously. 

"I'm so sorry," he muttered still head in his hands.

I was mute.

"I-I-I......," he sighed before speaking again ," I kind of took a few pills yesterday, and then I got drunk, I guess they don't mix."

"Why," I croaked my voice hoarse, I wanted to know why he would put me through so much pain and agony.

"I can't tell you," he said pulling his face up trying to look me in my eyes, lingering on my face.

"Like hell you can't," I snapped at him, " I deserve to know why you tried to-to ... to rape me," I whispered the last part.

His eyes were empathetic. I felt kind of bad for snapping but I pushed that feeling away.

"I didn't want to feel ," his voice now was hoarse.

"Well if you didn't want to be friends than you should of just said someth-" I tried to reply but was cut off by him lightly chuckling. I found nothing funny.

"No" he paused," I meant.." he shook his head.

I was now curious to what he meant, sitting up carefully facing him, same position as him, straight up.

"Mya............." he paused for another long moment

"Just spit it out Jason" I said

Jason opened his mouth to answer but was cut off by the door opening with a more calm Ryder walking out. Jason quickly shut his mouth.

"C'mon Mya, lets go get some food," Ryder said avoiding Jason's stare.

"Okay," I mumbled standing up walking away from the chair walking past Ryder into the house Jason didn't object me leaving, I figured he didn't want to start another fight as he too started to look drained.

My anger for Jason dulled the more he explained himself. I wanted to know more and I would find out more, and that I promised.

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SOOO really short chapter, i'm really sorry but the next chapter will be longer, I just felt it was a good place to leave it, i'm already starting the next chapter, its gonna be called stay. ;)