A Blue Neighbourhood ••Tronnor

FOOLS

A/N: So in this AU there's some Troyler and a Connor with feelings for his best friend. Also, this is the longest oneshot I've ever written *proud* and also, double update yay *proud again*
Sad-and-cute warning, enjoy

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-Connor

I woke up late one night to the sound of my phone buzzing against my bedside table.

As I squeezed my eyes shut before opening them, I sat up in my bed. I grabbed my phone with my right hand and squinted my eyes against the light of the screen.

When my eyes had gotten used to the light I could see that my best friend Troye was calling me. He was the sweetest person I've ever met. It was impossible not to love him, but for me it was different. I didn't only love him as my best friend. He made my heartbeat rise by only smiling and I was feeling like butterflies filled my whole body.

He was living two blocks away from me and the only problem was that he lived with his boyfriend Tyler. Okay, that was probably not the only problem since I was way too shy to ever tell him how I really felt about him. And if I ever did tell him there was still no chance he would love me the way I loved him.

I always used to imagine him coming up to me one day, telling me he had always been in love with me and then I tell him I feel the same way. But that "happily ever after"-ending only happen in children's stories. I know that I must keep my hopes small, but I still can't get myself to stop wanting him. Wanting all of him.

And it made me sick that I'd just been standing here for years, as his friend. Getting to know his deepest secrets, the little things that made him who he was, watching him fall for another guy while my heart was slowly breaking as I fell in love with him. It truly was like John Green said:

"I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, then all at once"

Except that in my case there was no Augustus to fall in love with, there was a Troye who was one million times better than Augustus could ever be. But I was not Hazel, and surely Troye wouldn't tell me his love for me was a "shout into the void" because his love for me was nonexistent.

But the real question remained; why was he calling me at 5 am?

"Hey?", I said when I had pressed the green button.

"Hey", was the answer I got.

"Troye, it's like 5 in the morning, why are you calling me?"

Normally I would be the happiest man in the world when he was calling. But it's 5 am; I'm asleep, and I'm confused.

"Connor, promise me you won't get mad?", he spoke, his voice was so small and weak, it almost sounded as if he'd been crying. Now I was really started to get worried.

"Troye? What's going on? Where are you?"

"In jail"

My eyes shot open and I stood up from my bed, suddenly I was completely awake.

"Why? What happened?", I asked, my voice shaking out of worry.

"Me and Tyler, we... I got a DUI"

"You were drunk driving?", I said, shocked.

"Well, yeah. That's what DUI means", the fact that he was joking right now pissed me off.

"Troye, I fucking know what it means! I just can't believe you would do something like that!"

"Look, I know it was irresponsible done by me to-", he started but I cut him off.

"Irresponsible? You could've hurt yourself or someone else really bad!", I wasn't gonna be okay if something would've happened to him.