Jake

Untutored Part 16

Dont you hate when people bring something up and then they say nevermind. So I came up to Stacy and said hi and she looked like she saw a ghost.

"Stacy whats wrong?"

"uh, it's just, I mean nevermind it's nothing important"

" If it's bugging you it's important"

" I saw Jake the other night at the bar"

My mind goes blank it's not a Stacy problem it's a Jake problem. I freeze and with a lump in my throat I say " Wh-what about it?"

" Well I saw Stella there too, and they were sitting together." She looks down at her feet.

I start to cry tears going down my face.

"and?"

" He kissed her, like made out and left in his car."

She starts crying to and then she hugs me and cry there in school in front of everyone. A hand appears on my shoulder. I turn around. It's Jake.

" whoa who died" He says.

" No body yet" I turn around and stare him in the face.

" Whoa Jess what's wrong?"

I start crying " We were apart for 2 days Jake"

" What's going on baby"

I get closer he has fear in his eyes.

" 2 DAYS JAKE"

He looks around there's a crowd watching now. Great an audience. I push him.

" And you already found my replacement."

" Hold on Jess what are you talking about We are back together now."

" Stella really?" I look at him tears all over my face everyone is looking. I could say so many things to him. My throat burns as I make the words come out. He froze as soon as he heard Stella.He looks at his feet. I push him again and turn around. He has a firm grip on my arm.

" Don't touch me" I look him straight in the eye.

"Jess I'm sorry, please stop."

" No Jake, I dont know what the hell you were thinking."

" I don't know Jess." I turn around and face him.

" Did you think I'd never find out? Is that what you thought?"

He stands there looking at the floor and whispers "sorry"

I look at him in disgust "Ya, me too, goodbye Jake."

" Please don't say goodbye." He looks up in panic. " Please don't mean that"

" Goodbye Jake" I swallow the lump in my throat and turn around heartbroken. Stacy and Brittany at my side hugging me.

I turn around he's standing there head down as kids look at him and shake their head. He then walks quickly to a locker and slams his fist against it. Then he puts his head against it. I watched and as Im about to turn around I see a tear fall from his cheek.

But what hurts the most is just as I thought my heart couldn't break anymore he shattered it. He wants her, he needs her, and I'll never be her.