The Book Of Nora

08

THE RETURN

I want to apologize for my disappearance. I've been sucked into a void of confusion and frustration. I have decided to let out some frustrations and whoever is fucking reading this can keep reading or leave.

So first things first: What the fuck is going on in my "love life?"

After my first (and possibly last) relationship or whatever the fuck that was, people have started to try and get me to pursue people or start having an interest in me. I was cool with it until people started pressuring me to the point where I started mostly losing and occasionally gaining friendships.

This one guy I dislike because of his attempts to get my affection has driven me mad along with the "supporters" of him and I dating. I want to shove a a tree up their asses because they say that I am with him and he goes along with it because I know that bitch likes me. I am not interested in him romantically at all and his ignorant supporters should respect that. Also, someone had told me that he assumes that I am interested and attracted to girls rather than guys. If he believes that I am interested in girls, why is he still after me? Whether what he assumes is true or not, I still do not like him.

There is someone who I am interested in but it is too complicated to fully explain. Our "relationship" is confusing at the moment because he is unsure of how he feels towards me and I am unsure if I should continue pursuing him. I genuinely like the lad but I don't want to get hurt and I don't want him to get hurt. My friend who strongly supports us may have affected him since she is persistent. But I also take the blame because I'm sure certain things that I have done may have affected our relationship. (We are not "together/dating")

Also, another friend of mine believes I should date a new friend of mine from my Spanish class. We are both alike in several ways and we get along. I think he might like me since he compliments me on small things no one really notices. He surprises me at times but I can't really see anything happening romantically with him. I still like that other person but I am starting to doubt if we will have a future. Maybe we will turn into a memory. Hmm...

Maybe I will follow a different path in the future that no one, not even myself, will expect. Or maybe I will follow a path that everyone wants and expects but I'd rather surprise everyone so I might carve my own path. I might end up defying the stars.