The Book Of Nora

02

STORY TIME WITH NORA: MY FIRST RELATIONSHIP

Alright my beautiful children, come sit on my lap as I tell you a 100% true story. *sips tea* Honestly, it surprises me that this even happened to me because I'm kinda reserved and I've never been one to just always want a relationship. I just wanted to be a cat lady, guys. Oh well, I guess. Get comfortable because it is story time.

Once upon a time, I walked into my sixth hour classroom after a long appointment with the eye doctor because I was finally getting contacts.When I walked in, the class was watching CNN student news like always. My guy friends in the class were fangirling over Carl Azuz.*eye roll* I sat in my seat and looked around. I noticed this fucking new guy and I'm like who the fuck is that guy? So I just stared at him for awhile and then just looked away because nobody likes to be stared at for a long time by a freaky girl.

After that, my friends and I started working on our project. I then stared at the guy again and saw that he was just standing there with a group and doing absolutely nothing. And I just thought, "Man, he would make a great spirit animal." (Now that I look back on this, I'm really weird as fuck) So I told my best friend Hailey this and she was like man we should just call him that and we did. We just called him that every single time we saw him and he was cool with it. I guess him and I became friends after giving him that nickname.

Now this is where is gets fucking weird. Somehow, that he got my Instagram and follows me. And I'm just like how the fuck did he find me? But I shook it off and followed him back. Instantly, I get a DM from him and I'm just like okay this is weird...but I respond to him though. After that, we started texting for a while and then he told me that he liked me. I was starting to like him too so I just told him I liked him back.

Okay, now this is where shit gets real. Some day at school, one of my friends tells me that he was texting her too but he asked for pictures, but she didn't send him any. I got pretty mad. I just fucking laughed it off and I didn't eat lunch because I was disgusted with him. I ignored him that day and on the bus, (he used to sit with me) I sat as far as I could on the seat from him.

I didn't look at him or even talk to him because I was mad and I was being a bitch. My sister told me that later on that he looked frustrated on the bus. He had tried texting me and I simply replied with short texts and my anger was building up. I then sent him a long ass text in which I went off on him, told him to never talk to me again, and I clearly remember telling him to suck a dick.

I then proceeded to block him and delete messages from him. I tell my friend (the one who was asked for pictures) what I did. We texted about it for awhile and then I got a text from Hailey in which the guy texted her saying he never did that and how he was falling for me and how he was never going to hurt me. I just told her to tell him that I didn't want to talk to him.

I told my friend (the girl who was asked for pictures) and she went off on him. Hailey then told me that he swore on his dad's grave that he would never hurt me and that really pissed me off. My other friend showed me all the messages he had sent her and what she sent him. All that drama just exhausted me and I just had enough. I simply told my friend Hailey to tell him to let me think this through.

The next day was a school day, and I pretty much ignored him all day. I spent the weekend thinking, "Should I give him a second chance?"

Surprisingly, I ended up giving him that chance and I apologized for being a bitch about what had occurred. We ended up kinda sorta dating. It was honestly an odd relationship. I felt like I was with two different people. When I was physically with him, he hardly talked. When I texted him, he was this different person. I then started to feel unhappy with him after a while. The relationship didn't feel right.

He was honestly a weight on my shoulders that I couldn't hold up. His baggage was too heavy. He had a lot of issues in his life and I couldn't handle that. I ended up breaking up with him. I felt really guilty, but he was oddly okay with it. I think two days after, he got a new girlfriend. I'm honestly happy that he found someone despite it being so soon. I'm happy that he has someone who can be the person he needs because I can't be that. He now has someone to love, and eventually, I will have someone to truly love and put effort into. Also, I don't regret the relationship because it taught me a lot about myself and I'm really glad it ended on good terms. We don't talk anymore, but I hope he is happy with her and that he becomes a better person.

Guys, if you ever need to talk to someone, you can talk to me. I can talk to you about anything and everything. I love you guys even if I don't know you. :) Thanks for reading this.