Rebound

CHAPTER 19: Heart to Heart

Nathan's POV

Katapos lang ng photo shoot ko so I decided to go to the club. To unwind, relax and drink para malinawan naman ang isip ko. Cassy consume my whole being and it's so hard for me. I don't know what will I say?? I dont know how will I say that I still fucking love her!.

I ordered Jack Dainiels Black Label I'm sure hindi ako malalasing cause I have a high tolerance in alcohol. Maganda dito sa club, maingay pero nakakapag-isip pa rin naman ako. Nakakailang shots pa lang ako ng biglang tumigil yung music at may nagsalita sa stage.

"I just want to steal this moment to introduce to you my cousin Georgina Cassandra Bernz. She will sing for us. Come on up on stage coz"

Halos matigil sa ere yung pag-inom ko ng alak. I heard it right Georgina Cassandra Bernz, that's Cassy and she's here. Tumayo ako at lumapit sa stage then I saw her wearing sexy black dress. It's not revealing but God she look so damn hot on that dress, it drives me crazy.

Hinawakan na niya ang mic at nagsalita.

"Hi guys, I dont want to spoil the night so I'm gonna sing."

Then she started singing ...

"I thought, I saw a man
brought to life
He was warm, he came
around and he was dignified
He showed me what it
was to cry
Well, you couldn't be
that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Seem to care what
your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where
he used to lie
The conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late,
I'm already torn."

Wait, is that song dedicated for me?? Para kasing ako ang tinutukoy niya sa kanta niya. I'll just listen to her and hihintayin ko siyang matapos kumanta dahil gusto ko siyang makausap.

After a while natapos na siyang kumanta, nilapitan ko siya agad. She was about to leave pero hinawakan ko ang kamay niya dahilan para mapalingon siya. I saw in her eyes that she was shocked upon seeing me.

"Hi Cassy" I said then I smiled at her

"Oh.. H-Hi Nathan" impit na sagot niya

"Sinong kasama mo??" tanong ko sa kanya

"I'm with Dess" she said

"Oh, you're still together? Forever bestfriends?" sabi ko

"Of course, wala naman nagbago sa amin" sagot niya

"Mind if I join you? or you could just join me? I'm at the V.I.P lounge." I said while smiling at her.

"Uhh Y-Yeah, sure!. I'll just call Dess" she replied

"No, we'll call her. I'll come with you" sabi ko

Tumango lang siya at hinawakan niya ang kamay ko para i guide kung saan ang pwesto nila.Masaya ako dahil hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. God knows how I miss this, yung paghawak niya sa kamay ko. She used to hold me like this before and it sends me goosebumps.

Sa bar counter lang pala sila nakapwesto ni Dess. Nagulat pa si Dess ng makita niya kaming magkasama.

"Oh? Kayo na ulit?" tanong niya ng nakangisi.

"I hope so? " sagot ko sa kanya.

Bigla naman tumingin si Cassy sa akin and namumula na yung pisngi niya. I don't know if it's because of the alcohol or dahil sa sinabi ko.

"Dun tayo sa pwesto ko, sa V.I.P lounge."

Tumayo naman agad si Dess at binitbit yung iniinom nila.

"Let's go." aya niya

So naglakad na kami papunta sa V.I.P lounge hawak-hawak ko pa rin ang kamay ni Cassy." Good Lord thank you for this day na nakasama ko si Cassy after 6 years. Sana masundan pa ito" bulong ko sa maykapal.

Nang marating namin ang lounge umupo na kami at tinanong ko sila kung anong gusto nila.

"Anong gusto niyo kainin?? "

"Kahit ano na lang" sagot ni Dess

Tinawag ko na yung waiter at um-order. Nakita ko si Cassy tahimik parang may iniisip. Panay ang inom niya, nakailang shot na siya kaya sinaway ko na siya.

"Hinay-hinay lang Cassy"

Tumingin siya sa akin at nguiti ng nakakaloko

"Nooo, I can manageee" sagot niya.

Fuck!! lasing na pala siya. Hindi na tama yung pagbigkas niya.

Maya-maya tumunog yung cellphone ni Dess kaya tumayo siya. She mouthed "Excuse Me", tumango naman ako sa kanya.

I break the silence between me and Cassy.

"I miss you Cassy. Why did you leave me without explaining?"

Nagkaroon ako ng lakas ng loob na tanungin siya. She come closer to me then she suddenly kiss me, I respond to her kisses because God knows kung gaano ko kagustong dumating ang araw na ito. I pulled her closer and hug her tight. After a while she initially break the kiss.

"You wanna know the reason bakit kita iniwan noon? That's the answer. I-I love you and I can't take that you choose your ex over me. Mahal kita kaya binigay ko lahat sayo puso ko, kaluluwa ko, at ang buong pagkatao ko. But I guess I'm not enough. Because she's your first love, first girlfriend, your first holding-hands, first hug, she's the one who devirginize you, childhood sweetheart, bestfriend lahat ng first mo siya. Sino lang ba ako isa lang akong babae na nakilala mo 2 weeks ako bago kita sagutin I know I can never replace her in your heart Nathan but I took the risk. Even if they're saying that I'm just a "REBOUND" I didn't listen to them, the hell I cared.! Pinagpatuloy ko pa rin ang relasyon natin kahit nasasaktan na ako sa mga naririnig ko nagpaka bingi ako para sayo, alam mo ba yun? Tapos makikita ko kayong magkasama sa condo mo with all your naked glory. I was hurt, really hurt that I wanted to die at that moment."

Tears are falling from her eyes while she was talking. It tears every pieces of my heart knowing that I am the reason why she's hurting before and now.

"I'm sorry Cassy it's not what you think. If you could just let me explain before you leave. Dawn planned it para mapaghiwalay tayo. Nagsisisi siya na pinagpalit niya ako dahil iniwan din siya ni Steven. Wala talagang nangyari sa amin kasi pinainom niya ako ng sleeping pills. Do you think I can get my hard on when I'm peacefully sleeping? A person who take sleeping pills can never feel or hear anything Cassy. And for the record sinabi niya na wala talagang nangyari sa amin. She just wanted to blackmail me para makipaghiwalay ako sayo at bumalik ako sa kanya because she's 1 month pregnant with Steven. Gusto niyang ipaako sa akin ang bata. Pero nakonsensya din siya kaya inamin niya. I love you Cassy and hinding-hindi ako gawa ng bagay na alam kong makaka sakit sayo"

Nilapitan ko siya at niyakap and doon na tumulo yung luha ko..